Evgenia
Kornilova (Nizhni Novgorod, Russia)
I am 41 single, never married and I am self-employed white musician, no children.
Evgenia contacted me at ilove.co.uk, telling me she was a doctor earning $100 a month. It started in October, she sent me a few photos of her, including a message to me, I was certain then she was a real person. I brought up the subject of money in the first letter, she was furious and said she was not that kind of girl. When I became very interested in her, she then repeatedly asked for money for travel. Eventually she stopped and said she would save the money, but soon she wanted me to send a toy to her, and she became fixated on this toy I would send. She stopped writing for nearly two weeks, blaming me for this, she began asking for money again, this time to finance a property deal. She gave me details of where to send the money $2500, a considerable sum!!!
Here it is:---country: Russia
City: Yoshkar-Ola
Name and surname: Dinara Ahmetzyanova
postal code: 424038
She has now written again, complaining I have lied and not sent her the money.
I think she has profiles at madameeting.com and my-women.com, under the name Evgenia Kornilova, the photos there seem similar to those she sent me.
This is the main letter from Evgenia:-
Date: Fri, 8 Dec 2006 16:33:18 +0300
From: "Evgeniawoman" <evgeniawoman@rambler.ru> View Contact Details
To:
Subject:
hi my darling!!!! Well, I understand, that you do
not have money as well as at me!!!! I have one variant. But whether to like he To you? I have apartment which has got to me from my uncle. That she would be mine, her it is necessary privatize. And if I privatize her she will be mine, and I can sell her. To me have said, that such apartment will cost approximately 70-80 Thousand dollars. It is very big sum of money, I privatize this apartment and to sell her, What to arrive to you. But privatization will be costs 3000 $ help to me please with this sum of money and when I shall come To you we together shall spend this sum of money. Write to me Please that you think of it? To me the answer is important yours Because I want to construct with you family, and to like You. Evgenia
This is the first letter she wrote:
Sun, 15 Oct 2006 12:11:13 +0200 (CEST) From: loveangelkiss@ilove.co.uk To: Subject: Hello!!! Have a good... loveangelkiss writes: Hello!!! Have a good day!!! I write to you in hope to find to myself the new friend (probably second half). You probably are surprised, why I write to the person is much more senior than me? I shall answer you, that I was bothered with my coevals, sex, anything is necessary for them only except for. I read your structure, and it seems to me that we with you are similar. My name is Evgenia, me 23 years. I live in Nizhen Novgorode. If I have intrigued you, write to me on a box, it will be pleasant for me, if you will not ignore me, and will answer me. I allow to you the box: evgeniawoman@rambler.ru With impatience I shall look forward to hearing from you. Evgenia
Yours sincerely, Paul
  
Mariya Gorshounova
(Sovetka, Russia)
This is a SCAMReport on Mariya Gorshounova from Sovetka, Russia.
I am Divorced 37 year old male. Self-employed from Columbia, South Carolina.
She originially contacted me from True.com on October 16, 2006. She proceeded to fall in love with me over a slower two month period. After getting a notice that she could take vacation, she wanted to come to USA and meet me. After she went through a week process of paperwork and interviews she said she got her VISA and sent me a digital image of it. She then proceeded to tell me that the "fruits" of all her hard work was done and she had gotten the VISA and was working on the plane tickets. But she found out that they were more expensive than she thought. And after paying $500 for the VISA and putting down $849 for the plane tickets, she was short by $273 for the plane tickets and needed the money by December 1, 2006, or she would lose the tickets and the money she put down on them.
Being in photography as a hobby, I had noticed several of her pictures had been "altered" using Adobe Photoshop...including the VISA. I searched for where I could go to check the authenticity of the VISA she sent me. I ended up calling the US STATE DEPT in Washington and they informed me that the "Control Number" on her VISA was an Invalid Forged number and they immediately asked if I had met this person on the Internet and if she was asking for money!!! I said yes and they said she is SCAMMING you! Before I found this info out, I had e-mailed "Mariya" and asked her about the "altered" pictures and VISA and why she had "made changes" to her photos and what was going on? Needless to say, she has not written me back and knows that I have figured out what she was doing to me... But the thing is this, I had been in a scam before where the girl did this scamming to ask for money in only a 3 week period and was very distant and not very personal to me in her e-mails. BUT THIS GIRL MARIYA!!!! She went through all the time and trouble to answer all my questions and to give me details and details about her life and our new life together and suck me in to a "fairy tale" unbelievable sincere honest and loving relationship over a 2 month period...she was GOOD!! She even had the right "flight plan" numbers that she sent me for her trip from Moscow to Columbia... with dates, times, flight numbers etc... she put in as much time and heart as a real person would!!! SHE IS VERY VERY DANGEROUS and GOOD at getting you in the HEART! She acted with such care and concern and passion like I have never seen before on Internet scams. For two months, I thought she was the REAL thing... But when that last e-mail came very apologetically and ashamedly asking for money via Western Union, my heart broke!! Then I knew it was over and a scam! I have attempted to report this scam to her domain "smallclinic.com" but it is a Russian domain, so I don't know if they can read my English and understand what I am reporting.
Please get her name and pictures out there on the Black-List as soon as possible!!!
HER REPORTED ADDRESS IS:
Russian Federation,
344000, Rostovskaya obl.,
d. Sovetka, ul. Frunze, dom 38, kv.4
Mariya Gorshounova
HER E-MAIL ADDRESS IS:
doc@smallclinic.com
THE FIRST INTRODUCTION LETTER ON TRUE.COM:
Hi my new friend! My name is Mariya. I hope my letter will find you in good mood. I for the first time try such a way of dialogue, and I really don't know what to tell right now even though I understand that this first message have greater importance. But I have decided to write to you and maybe you will answer. I sincerely hope that you are looking for the same as I. Once upon a time, the loneliness has come into my home and since then does not want to let me off. The loneliness establishes own laws of life and life filles with sadness and disappointment. I freeze from loneliness. Every evening I look at a sundown and I try to absorb all warmth of day, up to last drop. I am looking for a partner in life to share simple pleasures and together take off from the soul the weariness and sadness given birth by loneliness. I am looking for a man to become friends first of all and to go together along the road of life, to have common joy, together enjoy autumn magnificence, together build the future. I do not know if it is really possible to find it in such a way. But I know that many people not been able to find happiness in the usual life, have found happiness in this way. I am happy where I now, and my life is a good life, but happiness has no sense if you cannot share it with person dear to you. I could not find here a man who will make me blossom like flower. That is why I took this courageous for me step. As speak, the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. To tell about itself briefly is impossibly, therefore I will not try to do it now. I will wait for your letter and if you are really serious in your search, maybe we will find interest in each other. Neither of us knows to where this path will lead but I am willing to walk it and see where it takes us. I tried to put my picture in my profile, but I understand nothing in computers and probably I did something wrong. But I will send my picture through e-mail if you will answer me.
My personal mail address: [ doc (at) smallclinic com ]
Answer my note as soon as you can!
THE FIRST LETTER I RECEIVED AT MY E-MAIL ADDRESS:
Hi Darius!
First of all I want to apologize for my delay with my answer. Please do
not be angry with me. Unfortunately I had no opportunity to write to
you
sooner. I hope you remember me? I have written to you the short letter
and
you have answered me. I wanted to answer at once to not keep you
waiting
for my answer, but I got access to a computer only now. Please, forgive
me. I am very glad that you have answered to my letter. Thank you that
you
have found time for answer.
Probably first of all I should write the most important thing. I hope
and
I think you are not very much afflicted that I live not in your country
(I think you already know about it). But I very much hope that it does
not
frighten you, because I am the same lady like many other ladies living
in
the different countries. I am the same person with heart and soul. I
very
much am afraid that my nationality and my residence will disappoint you
and you will not write to me more, but at the same time I sincerely
hope
that nationality and distinction of cultures for you is not the most
important things in a lady. And if your interest is not limited by
distance or borders, I really will be very glad. My country is Russia.
Moscow is the capital of Russia. Now I live in village of Sovetka.
It's a small settlement, where live a few hundreds inhabitants.
Probably
if you want to have the best understanding about where I live, I should
tell you that my village is located close to the big city - Taganrog.
It is a city located in Rostov Area - in a southern part of the
European
Russia,near to such known cities as Novocherkassk, Rostov on Don.
In the childhood I dreamed to be a translator of the English language.
I dreamed to work with our President to know all state and
international
secrets! (smile). But the destiny has disposed differently.
I think our president doesn't need my services now because I am
gynecologist,
and I think that our president would not allow me to examine him
(smile)!
I began to get education in the comprehensive school with a medical
bias.
After ending school I entered the Medical University.Now I work in a
clinic.
I work as an gynecologist. I already said that my name is Mariya.
Darius, I promised to share with you my picture,
I fulfils my promise with worry and with pleasure. In addition to
a picture I want to tell that color of my hair is dark-brown, though
sometimes
I like to change color of hair. I hope you are not disappointed very
much
that I am a dark-brown, because I know that all men love more blondes?
It is
a question!!! (smile). My height is 5 feet 6 inches. My weight is 115
pounds.
And of course you should know that I am 29 years old. My birthday
is 01 May 1977. I understand that all people have various tastes and
interests, but I sincerely hope that my picture and my appearance will
be
pleasant for you. But if my appearance doesn't conform to your tastes
and
interests, I will understand you, of course. I the optimist at heart
and
it's often help me in my life. I already adult woman; and I look at the
life with a philosophical shade. But as though I did not try to inspire
myself that I absolutely happy woman, I can't do it. I have fine lady
friend, I have job and my apartment. But there are things without which
people cannot be happy. And for me it's not material things. I have
written to you the first and it means that I am ready to share with you
my
thoughts. I am very glad and grateful to you for that that you have
answered me. Anyhow, I hope that you, just as I, have interest in our
dialogue, and I will wait your answer. In the end of my letter I want
to
ask you the most banal questions: what music you like, what movies you
prefer. These questions are really interesting for me because I like
American movies and American music very much. I with pleasure will tell
to
you about it in my next letter if you really want to learn more about
me.
Do you like your job, Darius? Had you ever had experience in
correspondence with a friend from other country? Maybe you are more
skilled in this than I am? If you do not want to answer these
questions,
please do not answer. It is simply my female curiosity. I will be
very grateful to you also if you will send me your pictures. I will be
happy to have your pictures in the computer. With the best regards.
Mariya.
THE SECOND LETTER:
Hi Greg!
How your day? I hope you are glad to receive my letter because when
I have received your letter I really was glad. Many thanks. At once I
want
to tell to you about my opportunities to write letters to you. I write
letters on my job because I have no the personal computer. The computer
is
in an accounting department. Lady who works with a computer will allow
me
to use a computer in my interests sometimes. It depends not from me,
unfortunately. I work from Monday till Friday. It is Russian standard.
Therefore I will not be able to write you and to receive your letters
Saturday and on Sunday. But sometimes I work Saturday and even Sunday.
In fact any pain hasn't schedules(smile). Therefore, maybe I will be
able
to write letters in the Saturday or Sunday. I will hope to receive
your picture soon. I will be very grateful to you! I have no any
brothers or sisters. What do you want to know about my job? Do you
remember that I am gynecologist? If I will say about my job in detail,
I think you will stop to write to me (smile).
Well, I will tell you more about my interests. I like various
types of music. I like to listen to classical music. I like Dire
Straits.
But my favorite is Pink Floyd. They are not similar to anybody. It is a
great band. I like Robbie Williams, Madonna and many others. In America
there are a lot of great musicians. I like Russian musicians but likely
you do not know them. OK, movie! I like works of such Russian directors
as
Konchalovsky, Mikhalkov. My favorite movies are "The Barber of Siberia"
and "Burnt by the Sun". It's masterpieces of the Russian cinema. The
American movie in Russia is considered like the greatest. I like
American
movies very much. Brave Heart, the Sixth Sense, Rainman, One Flew Over
the
Cuckoo's Nest, the Godfather, Groundhog Day, the Scent of a Woman,
Dragonfly. My favorite actors - Bruce Willis, Al Pacino, Kevin Costner,
Samuel L. Jackson, Uma Thurman, Tom Hanks, Kevin Spacey. My hobby, if
it's
possible to tell so - the English language. I have loved English long
ago,
when I studied at school. In Russia the program of training necessarily
includes foreign language, as a rule - English, German or French. I
have
entered in group of the English language and I am happy that I made it.
I
like your language very much. After school, I continued studying
English
at the university. I like this language. I have been studying your
language for 18 years. Of course I speak English! I have been studying
English for 18 years! I only hope that you would love my Russian
accent
that I have without any doubts. I want to know this language perfectly.
I know that now I admit mistakes, but I hope you won't angry. But my
biggest
predilection that will be with me during all my life is the knitting!
My
mom has taught me to knit in the childhood, and now I knit sweaters,
jackets and waistcoats for myself and for my friends. I like to knit
very
much, and I like woolen clothes very much. Basically all warm sweaters
that I have, I have made by my own hands. I do not know if in your
country
the knitting is popular, but here it is very popular. What else to tell
about me? I have no children and I was never married, though
of course I was in relationship and even thought that it will lead me
to
the happy future. But now I haven't anything except of bad and painful
memoirs. Greg, how you would describe your character? I never tried
to describe features of my character to somebody. I live with a smile
on my
face and with hope in my heart. I think I can consider myself an
optimist.
And maybe it has helped me to dare to write you. I saw a great deal in
my life,
and for 29 years I have passed through a lot of vital tests. And I know
that
I do not need many things to be happy. All I need is a man, friend,
soul-mate,
love. And my life has led me to the fact that now I seeks it in such
way.
And I do not think it is bad. How do you think? I live honestly, and it
brings pleasure to me. I know that happiness not requires many things.
Likely
the main thing that does not suffice me now is love. People without
love
cannot be happy. And I speak not only about love between a man and a
woman,
but also about love to a family for example. I have no family anymore
and
it really oppresses me. I always recollect my family. Greg, you meet
your
family often? I very much want to return that time when I had family.
Are you looking for the soul mate or just a friend? What are you
looking for
in a soulmate, Greg, if you are looking for? I hope to receive your
letter soon. Sincerely and with the best regards.
Mariya.
THE THIRD LETTER:
Hi Greg! Today definitely good day - day of dialogue with my
friend Greg! (Smile). How it is wonderful to receive something that
you really wait. And in a case with me it of course your letter! Thank
you!
Today was a difficult day, and dialogue with you removes my physical
weariness. The quantity of patients has considerably increased for some
last years. Here many people lives in the remote areas, impassable
districts. They lives even without an electricity in absolutely
unsuitable
conditions for a life. And it certainly becomes the reason of a plenty
of
diseases. The sad fact. Sometimes I want our president Putin to live
here
instead of the Kremlin, simply to understand what life is. Maybe in
this
case all wars would end much faster? Forgive me that I tell you about
our
problems, simply I write all what in my head. If you do not like to
read
about it - simply tell me. Thank you for your pictures. It is a fine
pictures. You are a strong and handsome man. I very much like this
pictures. It is wonderful, when a man combines force and charm. It
happens so seldom. Forgive me for my frank words. But I always speak
what I think. I think there is nothing bad in it. You have pleasant
appearance and it is wonderful. Pictures of your mom have amazed me!
She is a magnificent woman - a true example of eternal female beauty
and charm. She looks superb, has very beautiful sincere smile and
beautiful kind eyes. I am sure that she is the delightful woman.
You have asked about weather. Russia is very extended country and
divided onto a lot of various synoptic regions. For example the place
where
I lived before located in conditions of very cold and long winter. Here
winter long but not the coldest in Russia. In the winter we have
temperature
up to 15 degrees Celsius below zero (I think it is 5 degrees
Fahrenheit).
Summer here very warm, up to 30 degrees Celsius (85-90 Fahrenheit).
By the way, you have asked me about knitting. I make the sweater i are
wearing.
By the way Greg I have asked you about your family in my last letter
because it really interestingly for me, as all my family has passed
away.
My parents were military, mom was the military doctor, father was the
officer and we hadn't constant house because they very often got the
notice about new place of service, in places with the military
conflict.
Therefore my childhood was not very cheerful. We lived in temporary
habitation outside of zone of conflict, therefore sometimes I did not
see
my parents some weeks, and I was at home absolutely alone, being an
eight-year girl. Therefore since the early childhood I am able to cook,
sew, knit and do any heavy physical work. Now I absolutely agree that
it's
correctly said that:"Thing that does not kill us makes us stronger".
Don't you agree Greg? When father got new place of service near to
Kazakhstan, I have gone to study in the good medical university in
Tomsk.
I lived in student's hotel on distance of 600 kilometers from my
parents.
But we had meeting some times in the year. Later my parents got new
place
of service and have left to live in the Sovetka . And I saw my
parents only once in one year. At university for the first time in my
life
I have found a true friend (it is Svetlana) who is my best and reliable
friend till now. We have together passed through a hard time when have
been compelled to study and work in the evening and at night,- just to
support itself. After ending of university I was to get direction for
intern in Tomsk area, but I have received the letter from mom where she
informed that daddy has been killed in military collision. There is
nothing worse than to find out about death of the parent from the
letter.
After that I began to live with mom because I was afraid to leave her
lone
at such difficult period. One and a half year ago my mom has passed
away.
I will not describe all pain and suffering which I had at that time.
Simply I want to tell that all ups and downs, all pleasures and
misfortunes that were in my life have led me to who I am now. The
destiny
was not tender with me, but I am grateful to my destiny for my parents,
I
am grateful to my destiny for my friend Svetlana, because it really a
gift of
destiny. And I hope Greg you are not angry with me that I talk to you
about it? It is my life and it is a part of me. And how you would learn
me
more if I would not tell you it, really? And I as well would be glad to
learn more about you. Your life is very interesting to me. Are you
grateful to destiny for anything in your life Greg? How often you
become tired on your work? Do you like the nature, rivers and lakes,
woods and
mountains? Are you religious person Greg? I will wait for your letter
so please write me soon! Sincerely and with the best regards.
Your friend (I hope) Mariya.
THE FOURTH LETTER:
Hi, Greg!
Unfortunately I had no opportunity to write to you earlier.
Please forgive me for a delay. I hope you are not offended on me.
But better later than never.
Happy birthday to you!!!
Happy birthday to you!!!
Happy birthday dear Greg!!!
Happy birthday to you!!!
In Russia usually speak the wishes for hero of the day. I want all
your dreams to come true. I wish that any troubles and misfortunes
have forgotten road to your house. I wish for you only the enjoyment,
only pleasure, only Love. Today I had so much work that I was afraid
that I wouldn't have time to get your letter. And I have to say that
it is distressed me. But now I have found free time and very glad.
Thank you for your kind letter. My last letter was sad. That's why
today I will try not to write about sad things. How there were your
day? Now I am smiling and have a good mood, because today we found out
that in two days into Taganrog will be coming big exhibition of rare
breeds of cats and dogs. It is great news because at this exhibition
there will be the best representatives of rare breeds, collected from
all of Russia. Everybody wants to visit this exhibition because it
will last only for several days. I like animals very much. Can you
imagine that I never was in a zoo? It is my dream. But the last summer
I visited an exhibition of fishes. This exhibition is in Taganrog and
there many various fishes. All fishes such beautiful. Have you ever
been in zoo? We have here several small menageries, but I dream to see
giraffes and rhinoceroses, hippopotamuses and bears. I never saw
tigers and elephants in real life. Have you ever seen a tiger or a
bear? The biggest animal I saw in my life is a horse. I like horses
very much and think that these are the most beautiful animals in the
planet. As matter of fact I have always dreamt to have some pets.
Unfortunately a horse hardly would be placed in my apartment (smile).
I dreamt to have cat or dog. But when I think that a little puppy will
wait for me home, alone, I feel pity. That's why I don't have pets.
What else to tell about myself? I always very much get tired on work.
And
though my work is not heavy physical work but like any doctor, I am in
constant concentration and an internal moral strenuousness, because the
health of people depends on my attention. I am always waiting weekends
with impatience. Weekends are the only one possibility for me to get a
rest and to get new forces. Weekends I spend variously. Sometimes I
want
simply to rest in my apartment. I live alone in my apartment. I have
the
one-room apartment with a toilet and kitchen. I like my apartment -
small
and cozy. On weekends I always clean apartment properly. I like purity.
And though I always try to keep clean my apartment, all the same,
always
in the weekends I find what work to make in an apartment. But when I
want
really to relax I listen to music or read books. I like to read books
especially historical novels about ancient Russia or other countries. I
like to spend time with my female friends. I have two best lady
friends.
When we meet, the air is filling with laughter. We like to walk and to
talk; we go to cinema and walk in the park. If you want I can tell you
about my friends. I like very much to spend time in nature in the open
air. I like the sea. I live not very far away from the sea, but should
tell that I have been there very seldom. I like woods, mountains, lakes
and the rivers more. Camping in Russia is very popular. I adore to go
to
the forest and to live in a tent though now I have such opportunity
seldom. I like to look at night illumination and cars headlights. I
like
very much to look at the stars. In August our sky abound with stars. It
is
incredible beautifully. I like to cook on the fire. There is nothing
more
wonderful than when the fragrances of forest, mountain rivers and smoke
mix together in the air. I am romantic undoubtedly. I really like to
cook.
I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood. My
mother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can
cook well doesn't have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food
is a
way to the man's heart (smile). May be she was right. We have In Russia
many national dishes, such as an okroshka, uha, borsch, golubtsy. I am
not
sure if you know such dishes. These are Russian national dishes. Also I
like dishes of Caucasian Georgia. What dishes do you prefer Greg?
Looking back at your life would you like to change something? I have to
finish. I hope my letter was not stodgy and uninteresting. I will wait
for
your letter with impatience. I wish you peace and kindness.
Mariya.
THE FIFTH LETTER:
Hi, my dear friend Greg! I hope you not mind that I say so.
Thank you for your letter. Day by day I feel more need in getting
your
letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I
should say that when I have good mood I hear gratitude from my patients
much more often (smile). Therefore, now the health of a Russian women
depend on your letters (smile again).
Thank you for new picture. I already spoke, that you are a handsome
man. Your new picture confirms my words. You really very charming and
attractive a man and to look at you is very pleasantly. I never had a
friend from other country. It is my first experience of dialogue in a
similar way, and at present I am very happy. You are a first and only
one man with whom I have entered correspondence. You an only one man
who know my address and therefore only one man have written me - it's
you. I cannot and I do not understand how is possibly to open soul to
several people simultaneously. I can open my soul only to a man with
whom I feel conveniently to whom I trust. I have opened soul to you.
For me it not game and not a joke. I have no desire and time for
games. But I have time and desire to write to one man in your country.
It is you. You asked me about a possible meeting. I with pleasure will
answer - Of Course! I would not start such a relations if I were not
sure in it. If my heart will prompt me that I should go in your
country, I necessarily will go. Of course all is possible. And if I
will feel that time to meet have come, I will make all to organize
this meeting. To answer your serious question I want to tell that I
think any
relations should have as the reliable foundation - friendship, sincere
and
true. I am happy to have you as a good friend and if it will lead to
something more close, I will be happy. If I write to you it means that
I
admit a thought that we can become close friends, and of course I admit
a
thought about possible future together! From the very beginning I have
told that I write not for fun. For me it is a serious step. Now we go
on a
way of learning each other and I think it is correct way. I feel that
we
become good friends, and it can serve as a springboard for something
greater. I do not know what waits for us in the future. But anyhow, you
bring to me positive emotions and make me smile. It means that you
already
have found a place in my heart. Where it will lead me I do not know.
To my regret I could not visit an exhibition. Last days was a
lot of work and I could not go to Taganrog. But it not death (smile).
By the way, when I came to work today, my mood was bad, because my
friend
Svetlana fell ill and now she is in the hospital. The saddest thing is
that
she has birthday today. She is 30 years old today. Unfortunately she
will
spend her birthday in the hospital. But I have already talked with a
doctor and I will be allowed to spend evening in her chamber. In the
evening I will bake a cake, I will buy balloons and go to the hospital.
I
hope very much that she will have good mood on her birthday. She is my
best friend. By the way, she works with me in the clinic.
Svetlana the doctor the otolaryngologist in our clinic. As a matter of
fact I have only two real friends - Svetlana and Irina. Svetlana is a
lady who
is in the hospital. Irina is our friend already for several years.
Svetlana
and I are like sisters. We like to take a walk. Usually we walk in the
park. But also we like to spend time in Svetlana vegetable garden. She
lives
in an old wooden house. I don't know if you have seen such houses. It
is
the houses which were built before the Second World War, in the
fortieth
years. These are very old houses which don't have bath and running
water.
So people have to take water outside in the well. In modern world such
conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend
time in Svetlana vegetable garden. There she grows the potato, tomatoes
and
cucumbers not to buy them in the market. Every winter Svetlana, Irina
and I
together build a big Snowman in her vegetable garden, using a big snow
spheres. We put carrot instead of nose, and potatoes instead of eyes.
It
is very funny. All neighbor's children came to see it. By the way, if
we
want to fool about, we put carrots not only instead of a nose but also
below..... (hint and smile) First time we made such Snowman 10 years
ago.
Since that time we do it every year. It is a tradition for us. We
poured
it with water to cover with ice. So it could stand for the whole
winter.
I like Sovetka. Almost all people in our village know each other.
We have little buildings - maximum 2 floors. Svetlana says that she
wants to
live in a big city. I don't know where is better. Big city is a big
traffic, fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, lightning's of shop
windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, attractions,
theatres.
It is wonderful, of course I like it. But our village is a fresh air, a
lot of trees and birds, silent and comfortable, cozy, quiet place, no
hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and
large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there was no
criminality, it would be paradise. But alas, the criminal in small
cities,
as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life.
Unfortunately
the crime in Russia is on a very high level. But I don't want to tell
about sad things. Several times, Svetlana, Irina and I went to the
festival
of bard song. This is a place on the coast of the river where a lot of
people come from all country. At night the coast is covered with
thousand
fires lights. The scene is a huge raft having the form of a guitar and
established right on water and everybody who wants to sing together
with
famous bard singers, goes on this raft and starts to sing. And all
thousands people become silent and listen to this singer even if he is
absolutely unknown. It is the unique festival. I have to finish my
letter.
I don't want but I have to do it. Today when I will come to Svetlana we
will
talk about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I
wanted to ask you what makes you happy Greg? What was the best gift
from a woman you got? Sincerely your, and with best wishes.
Mariya.
P.S. I have put a picture of a Snowman, but only the top part.
I think you can understand, that other part indecent. Smile.
THE SIXTH LETTER:
Hi Greg!
Thanks for your anxiety about Svetlana. She has female disease. It is
not dangerous, but demanded to place her in hospital to take small
survey.
Now doctors have found out everything and probably tomorrow or the day
after tomorrow she will already leave hospital, but will be compelled
to
spend still some days home to provide a rest.
otolaryngologist it is the doctor an ear, a throat and a nose.
At once I want to tell that Svetlana sends you her greetings. I was in
hospital and we have spent her birthday very well. I wanted to bake a
small cake, but it has turned out on the contrary. The cake was huge.
It
weighed two kg. When I have brought it to hospital, we have divided
this
into set of pieces; and all doctors and some patients that were in this
small branch are drank tea and ate a pie together with us and everyone
was
glad and happy. I have brought a lot of balloons. She was very glad and
grateful to me. The day is wonderful today and the weather is good. The
sun is shining all the day. To add to all this I have got your letter
and
my happiness doesn't have limits. So what about your weather? May be
today
after work I will take a walk. I like to walk along the street and to
breathe the fresh air, especially when the weather is warm, even in the
winter. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. At home is very
boringly and lonesomely. Sometimes I don't notice it, but sometimes
when
I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts
with
anybody, to have fun. But my apartment is empty and I have to be in
full
loneliness. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down into the
armchair
and look at the window. And when the silence deafens me, when I hear
movement
of my eyelashes, at that moment the hoop of loneliness compresses my
heart.
I can listen to music or read a book. I can go to my friends. But in
some
moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a
beloved
person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet
morning,
to talk about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk
and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only
for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But I think enough about
it.
Thank you for your fine answers to my questions. Your thoughts are very
deep and are filled with man's wisdom. I like what you have written
about
the best gift from a woman. You are very sensual man. I see that you
have
considered my questions seriously and your answers are very clever.
In Russia there are very popular songs -songs of bards. I do not know
if there is in your country such concept. They are musicians who sing
not
with the purpose of commercial success. They write and sing songs for
itself and for friends, but they are known in all Russia. They do not
do
paid concerts. They sing about Russia, about a forest and steppes,
about
the sky, about love and treachery. These songs with the special shade
which carries the pride of Russia and love to boundless elbowroom of
our
beautiful land. The main thing in these songs - the text, deprived of
commonness. It is very beautiful songs. I very much like to sing their
songs.
I can give you my address, but you should not send anything with the
exception of letters. Please do not send any parcels. Our Territory -
the
center of terrorism where concentrated a lot of terrorists from
Northern
Caucasus and Chechen Republic, and their supporters, and getting of
mail
from other country is unsafely for Russian people living in Rostov area
,
because some supporters of terrorists can cause me physical
harm if find out about sending from America. Russian custom house
checks
everything, and customs officers decide what to skip and what to
confiscate or detain. If customs officer will sold or simply given
your sending
to any interested person, or simply would open it ostensibly for
checking
assignment of contents and simply would report to bad people my
address.
My life will undergo danger. It is unsafe for me. For this reason I
ask you to send
only letters. If you want to send me letter, your package should have
the minimal
sizes and do not draw attention of custom house. Promise?
Hi Greg, again. I began writing the letter in the morning. Now
already 5 p.m. Can you imagine? Today was heavy working day. My working
day comes to an end soon. But, one employee has brought here her small
son,
and she has asked me to look after him because she should leave
urgently
for some hours. The boy knows me very well. He already some times
remained
with me and spent time. As our clinic works till 22.00, we can be here
up to the end of work day. His mom works in our clinic only a few
months and
she has no friends or relatives here. That's why I already some times
helped
her. Her son is amusing boy. He told to me that tomorrow he with mom
should
go to dentist to treat his ill tooth. I asked him: What do you dream
about?
He answered that he dreams to become a grownup because grownups don't
have
problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often recollect childhood.
I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every
child
I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I
dreamt
in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an
illusive world. We live in a real life, so we should not sink into the
world of dreams and phantasies for a long time. When a dream becomes
obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Our dreams
come true not always. It happens that you use all energy, all
aspiration
to make dream come true. But irrespective of how strenuously you try,
not
everything in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time
does
not come true, dream ceases to be the star, that was for you a
lighthouse
in the ocean of the life. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to
live
without dreams and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled
with
sense. Our dreams force us to think, analyze, choose and come to a
conclusion. The Faith and Hope are eternal satellites of our lifes. And
regardless of what waits you at the end, we remember joy of the
victories
better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. Don't you agree?
I'm surprised that I write all this to you. I have never had a man,
with whom
I felt conveniently in sharing my thoughts. But now I have found you,
and
I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something
superfluous forgive me please. Can I ask some small questions? Do you
like
to sleep, or get up early in the morning? Do you like to kiss? (smile)
Are you a good kisser? (smile) Do you like when your friends come to
your home
or you prefer to go to friends. I adore when Svetlana or Irina come to
my
apartment. What clothes do you like to see in a lady? I will wait for
your
letter with impatience.
Mariya Gorshounova.
THE SEVENTH LETTER:
Hi, Greg.
I am very glad that you have written me. Thank you very much. You
cannot
imagine how much I wait for messages from you! Your letters became a
part
of my days! Now in my thoughts always only one question - "When I will
get
an opportunity to read your letter and to write my?"... And when I hear
a
favorite phrase: "Mariya, you can jump, you has received the letter!"
(A lady who works with a computer says exactly this phrase) I really
become
joyful very much and start to smile involuntarily. Therefore thank
you!!!
Today is a good day and to clinic I have come already with good mood.
Today at night there was a little rain. In the morning I have come out
to the street to jog and I have seen that all footpaths and roads
completely are filled with water . But I like such a weather. I like
any
weather. Many people do not notice beauty that surrounded them. In my
soul
such a weather wakens the big energy and fine mood. I like all seasons.
I like autumn. Yellow leaves, gold trees. It is so wonderful to walk in
the
park and to listen to how leaves rustle under feet; to see the clouds
that
float in the sky, to see birds departing to the warm lands. And at
night
the sky begins to cry. The rain knocks on windows and roofs. A
lightning
illuminates for shares of second the empty streets. It is wonderful.
How
it would be wonderful in such a weather to appear with beloved in a
small
room with a warm fireplace; weak light and singing of a cricket. How
you
think Greg? What can be finer than romantic evening in rainy day? I at
all do not know what season I like more. Russian winter is delightful.
The
all world around is white. And falls of snow bewitches, especially in
the
evening. When you see flows of light from a window, and on a background
of
black sky small snowflakes are similar to stars. And if for a long time
you look at the sky, then it seems that you are flying through these
wonderful snowflakes towards something unknown. I like spring. The
world
as though is born again. Air is filled with freshness. All troubles and
failures thaws together with snow. The sounds of the baby birds
chirping
for the first time. Summer is a fine mood, the desire to learn the
world,
to have a rest and enjoy life. I feel that I rambling on.
Thank you for your fine words. Thanks for your sincere and gentle
words. Nobody spoke with me so gently, cautiously and sincerely
before! Your thoughts and feelings are so beautiful and romantic. And
I see me in your thoughts and it force me to feel that I especial
lady. Your letters and your thoughts bring pleasure at my day and give
calm to my soul. I think of you and I feel warmth in my heart. Thank
you for new pictures. I really want to tell you what I feel. I get a
great pleasure when you write to me. Your letters and your thoughts
bring pleasure at my day and give calm to my soul. I think of you and
I feel warmth in heart. You have such kind heart. Something inside me
prompted me that you very sincere and true a man. It so is important
for me. I always think about you and it is pleasant to me. I do not
know where I go. But I am not afraid of it. Nobody knows what waits
for us in the future, in one hour, or tomorrow, or in 20 years. I
simply go there where directs me my heart. I’m listening what my heart
says to me. When will come time to do the choice, to choose road, my
heart again will tell me what I have to do now. So was always in my
life. And now my heart is overflow with unusual feelings, and I do not
know how to describe what I feel. I do not feel that between us
thousand kilometers. I constantly think of you. I never feel such
warmth in my heart. Russian people really must get a visa. And if I
would not opportunity I would not begin to write to you. Some people
cannot get a visa at all, some people can get very quickly. - Depends
on ability of the person to prove that the purpose of visiting - not
emigration. The most approved categories are politics, doctors,
scientists and programmers. Therefore I already spoke you that if I
will feel that time to meet have come, I will do everything to
organize this meeting. My religion is Orthodox Christian. I go to
church as a rule some times in a month. It not often, but I think it
not the main thing if in the heart there is belief. My mom since the
childhood tried to impart to me the belief in God; but my belief has
come into my heart at conscious age. I cannot tell that I very pious
person. I believe and my belief comes from my heart. I think each
person believe anyway; but someone goes to church every day and reads
Bible every day while someone goes in church only when the soul really
need it. And everyone believes in God's fairness. And I think any
belief is right, if it helps the person to remove pain from soul. Not
important how often the person goes to church and reads Bible. The
main thing is what in your heart. The main thing is to live in the
consent with laws of conscience and honor alongside with Laws of God.
And has no value how the person believes. The main thing if belief
brings the peace in heart of the person. You have asked if I want
children. I very much love children. They should be loved. Children is
our future. Children are like music. They raise mood. Children are
flowers of a life. The wise man has told - the main thing that the
person during the life should make - to build the house, to put a tree
and to bring up children. If I will have children I will love them
more than life. You have asked me about work. My working day begins in
8.00. Working day in our clinic comes to an end at 22.00, but my
working day comes to an end at 17.00. I am one gynecologist on
Sovetka. Therefore I sometimes work without the days off.
By the way, I jog for many years. I really have good health because
I always try to support my figure and I jog every morning. I try to
spend
time in the air as much as possible. I have no car and I use transport
extremely seldom. I get contrast shower - alternation of a stream of
cold
and hot water. I since the childhood lived in conditions of cold winter
and damp autumn. Such climate is toughening health very well. I do not
smoke and I do not drink alcoholic drinks. I really love a healthy way
of life. And I am proud of it. I love sports very much. Though should
admit
that I never played golf, football and basketball, never boxed. But I
could surprise you, if I had opportunity to compete with you in beach
volleyball. By the way, when I studied at university, I visited section
of swimming and have reached good results. Some times I participated in
swim
competitions. Swimming - till now my favorite kind of sports.
Greg, I have to finish.With the best regards and with thoughts of you.
Mariya.
P.S.I want to give you a small gift and I send a pictures of me.
I hope you will like it.
P.S.S. You asked my address, I send you my address.
Russian Federation,
344000, Rostovskaya obl.,
d. Sovetka, ul. Frunze, dom 38, kv.4
Mariya Gorshounova
THE EIGHTH LETTER:
Hi my dear friend, Greg!!!!
I am very glad that you have written. Many thanks. You have again
raised my mood and have placed a happy smile into my face.
You have perfectly written "hello" in Russian.
I see your kindness; and all that you want in your life is so similar
to what I want. You are a most romantic man, and you are looking for
in the life the simple pleasures which will make the soul of any woman
a blossoming garden. You are a very funny man, and all your dreams are
filled with desire to love and to be loved, to wish and to be desired
to woman. I imagined many times all what you have described in your
letters. The woman who will win your heart will be the happiest woman.
You are able to make a life colorful, varied, funny and romantic. You
possess inexhaustible energy. Your heart is filled with tenderness and
kindness. You are a man each woman would dream about. I never thought
that I meet a man who is so similar to me in desires and dreams. When
I read your letters, I closed my eyes and saw all that you described.
And it brought pleasure into my heart. If you will send me a card you
should write the address as I have written to you. I understand your
request to call you from phone. I should tell that never so did not
worry about presence of phone, as now. I never thought that the
serious moments in our life can depend on presence of phone. But now I
understand that the fact that I have no phone can deprive me an
opportunity to learn a man who could become my friend. And it is
really afflicts me. But not all in this life depends on me.
Unfortunately I have no phone. Please, not be surprising. In Russia
many people have no phone. To get a phone it is necessary to write the
statement, to pay the big sum and after to wait for a long time queue.
Many people wait during several years. But I can try to call you from
the international item of communication. Can you give me your phone
number? If I can call you I will inform you. But anyhow, I understand
that for you would be easier to talk by phone. But alas, the life in
Russia is not similar to a life in America, and for the majority of
people a getting of phone is very long process. If for you phone is
the main criterion for the future relations, I of course will
understand you. But I have decided to use the Internet because it is
really accessible way for me. If nevertheless you want to continue
dialogue with me, I will be very glad. I cannot promise to you that I
will call you soon but if you will give me your number, I can promise
that I will search for a way to call you and sooner or later I will
call you. Contrast shower is when first you stand under a hot stream
of water, and then sharply switch to a very cold stream of water. It
is extremely useful procedure.
By the way Greg, today I went to job being absolutely confident that
your letter waits for me. Earlier I always went with thought that you
probably yet have not written, but today for the first time I went with
thought that your letter already waits for me. I went along the street
with the smile on my face. I could not hide my smile. People that went
past of me looked back and looked at me. Here already many employees
know
that I have found such a wonderful friend, and nobody is surprised that
my
friend lives in other country. Everybody only are glad. Nobody here is
surprised if the woman searches for not Russian man. I think the
cultural
distinction is a wonderful thing. I don't understand Russian men and
their
culture of dialogue with woman. They are not able to appreciate woman's
feelings, her fidelity, love. They do not appreciate sincerity and
aspiration of woman to do for a man absolutely everything. The only
thing
she need - the warmth and caress, which she wants to get from a man. It
is
the problem of Russian men. Russian lady does everything for a man but
doesn't get anything from him. All what she needs is at least a couple
of
tender words and gentle touching of his arms. Really it is so
difficult?
Really it is difficult to present for your lady a romantic evening and
a
supper with candles? In Russia as a rule such gift give lady to man,
but
not man to lady. You say that I am beautiful. In Russia I am not
considered like a beautiful lady. I am usual and simple woman with
usual
appearance. Russian men, practically all of them, usually show
disrespect
to ladies. They consider that woman only have to work, to cook, to wash
cloths and entertain a man when he wants. For Russian man to offend a
woman is a usual thing. I like to cook and to wash cloths but sometimes
I
would like to receive simple caress, love and attention. I don't want
to
offend all men. Of course there are good men in Russia, but there are
few
of them. Men very often say dirty words (not normative lexicon) when
they
talk with lady and consider that there is nothing bad in it. I want to
tell you about my ex-boyfriend. I feel that you will understand me. I
had
boyfriend. We had good time together. He was kind. But he liked to
drink.
When he got drunk he became an absolutely other person. He talked with
me
by bad and dirty words. The time passed and his love to alcohol became
a
habit. He became another person - rude and evil, even when did not
drink.
He has found the big interest in beating of me. He began to beat me
very
often and cruelly. He often knocked me in my face by fist and even
kicked
me by foot when I already was on a floor. And every time when I being
on a
floor looked in to his eyes, and with tears in my eyes asked him - WHY?
-
he just responded that any man is a King and a place of any woman -
under
foot of a true man. But the next day he smiled and talked with me as if
nothing had happened. In public he was very delicate, polite. All
people
considered that he is a true gentleman. But when he found oneself at
home,
everything was on the contrary. I very much was afraid of him and I
have
left him. My soul was wounded very much. After this I couldn't make
myself
get acquainted with another man. I don't trust Russian men. I am afraid
to
give my love, but back to get roughness instead of love. I have told to
you about it because I want you to know that I open to you my soul. And
I
want you to know about my ex-relationship with my ex-boyfriend. I feel
that I can tell to you about this because I feel that you have very
kind
heart. By the way, today Svetlana leaves hospital! And though she will
spend
some more days at home, all the same it is much better than in
hospital.
If you have disagreements with lady, can you apply roughness?
Are you able to transform quarrel into the peace, pleasure and a smile?
I hope my letter have not offended you in any way.
I have to finish. With all my kindness and tenderness.
Mariya.
THE NINETH LETTER:
Hi, Greg!
How is your mood? I hope that up to my letter your mood was fine, but
after
my letter your mood became superfine (smile) Likely I am too
self-confident. But I am happy again because I have again received your
letter. I so waited for this minute,- when I can write to you. Our
friendship became the important part of my life, and I hope that in
your
life as well. Sometimes I understand that the thread that connects me
with
you now is not most strong. But I do not want this thread to be torn.
Right now I sit and I smile simply because I am glad that again I can
to
share with you my thoughts. Sometimes I so want you to see my smile
during
the similar moment because I think it is the most sincere smile! But
sometimes my smile leaves me because I know that now the only thing
that
connects us is our thoughts, that we send to each other,- thoughts,
transformed into a letters that are not able to show all depth of
thoughts. But at the same time I understand that nobody knows what
waits
for us in the future. I hope my words do not offend you and maybe you
even
think just as I...
Thanks for all your words. I am very glad that you have expressed to
me your opinion. It is pleasant for me to realize that I have a friend
- a
true man. I really do not understand how people can be very angry if
they
love each other. I do not remember when at last time I became angry. I
do
not like to be angry and I do not like to quarrel. I know absolutely
precisely that any disagreements can be solved with a smile on the
face. I
try never to raise a voice. To force me to cry easier than to make me
mad.
I like to conciliate people and when my friends in the quarrel, I
always
act as conciliator. When I am upset, it can be understood on my eyes.
Elena says that when I am upset, I have such sad eyes that after
looking at me she wants to cry. Probably it is the truth because when I
am
upset, everyone notices it. I become silent and imperceptible. I as
always
talk with people, I smile, but all the same everyone see that something
wrong with me. To carry quarrel into the bed or to leave problem on
tomorrow 's day is wrong. I never would do that. I never can be in a
disagreement more than several minutes. I feel very much not
comfortably
if I am in a disagreement. Therefore I always try to reconcile at once.
If people love each other and respect feelings and interests of each
other,
I am sure that serious disagreements cannot be the case. I always take
into account an opinion of other people; therefore I very seldom have
disagreements with somebody. I respect any mind. And I am sure that
any quarrel can be discussed simply in quiet conversation. It is enough
to express your opinion and attentively and respectfully to listen to
opinion
of your beloved. And the decision will come. And what can be more
pleasant
than a soft kiss after a short disagreement? Really?
Oh yes! I like to kiss! (I want to intrigue you! I could?) I think
that a kiss it in general the most romantic and sensual way of
expression of the love, tenderness and desire. People allow to each
other to learn a internal world and taste of each other; people
exchange breath. It is very sensual moment and of course it brings
pleasure to any person. Kiss it's display of feelings. By means of a
kiss is possible to tell very much. It is very important part of
relationship. Any displays of feelings, kiss or embrace are very
important. It is the basic factor of relationship. I think the more,
the better. I like to be kissed in a neck! It is my magic place! Also
shoulders, hands, a stomach and of course lips!!!!! I like to be
affectionate. It is a part of my character. I like to give tenderness
and I like to get the tenderness. Therefore I hate a rage and
roughness. I like to express feelings in all allowable ways. And I
think that it's wonderfully. I like any clothes on a man. I like a
suit, jeans, sweater, a white shirt with a tie or without. But when
the man wear a shirt without a tie, I like when the top button, or two
have been unbuttoned. But I hate when a man wear dirty shoes.
Yes, my lovely, I like when a man has hair on a chest! I think it very
beautifully and expressively! Maybe some day you will allow me to run
my
hand at your chest and to enjoy softness of your hair. I think it is
delightful. I do not understand why women can dislike hair on a man's
chest. I think it very beautifully and makes a man very expressive!
Tomorrow difficult day waits for me. Probably tomorrow and
the day after tomorrow I will work outside of clinic.
We call it - "the ride working day". It is difficult day. At
this day several doctors and specialists of our clinic are going on the
special medical bus to various remote small settlements, small villages
in
a thicket of the forest. These are poor villages which are located far
away from the big cities and settlements. In these villages there are
no
doctors and clinics and people cannot visit clinic at any moment. In
such
villages there is always a lot of people who need the doctor but cannot
reach clinic by self. Often it is a people who are not able to live
without help of other people, - basically are small children or old and
weak feeble people. We go in these villages on the bus with all
necessary
equipment. People in these villages love us and wait more than
anything.
But it is really the hard work if to take into account that we are
going
there at 6 am, and we come back sometimes even after 10 pm! But I will
wait
your letter because our friendship gives force to me, and our dialogue
is a rest for my soul!
My dear friend Greg! I have to go! Sincerely and with thoughts about
you.
Mariya (Ma-ree-ya).
THE TENTH LETTER:
Hi my dear Greg!
Today is a fine day. Already in the morning I knew that I today
I will get an opportunity to write to you. And all the rest become
unimportant for me. Today I really haven't opportunity to write much.
Please forgive me. But I have enough time to tell to you that I
thought of you and waited when I will get opportunity to write you.
And I have time to tell the main thing. I do not know why, but today
I have woken up earlier than usually. I could not fall asleep again.
I simply sat near window and looked at the sky. Suddenly, a small
birdie
appeared on my window. It was very beautiful birdie. This birdie looked
at me, and started to twitter. It was so unusually and beautifully. It
was
a beautiful song. I looked at this small birdie and thought, that you
Greg now somewhere far away; maybe you sleep and see me in your
sleep-dream. And I so wanted you to see this small birdie and to hear
her
delightful song. And I have whispered: "Fly off, my little birdie,
fly to my friend Greg, and tell to him that one girl, that is so far
away,
thinks of him and sends to him this song. And at this moment the birdie
has flinched and flew away as if this birdie has heard my words!
And I have thought, if today you Greg will see a small birdie
singing beautiful song, - be sure that it is my birdie I sent to you!
Forgive me, but I have to go. I want to send you my kiss if you do not
mind.
Your Mariya.
P.S. I have for you a surprise. But I have one request to you.
I have written to you one phrase in Russian. I want what you
have tried to translate it.
THE ELEVENTH LETTER:
Hi, my far, but dear friend Greg.
Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am
really
madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have found
you.
I want to tell you today so much. Well, in Russian I wrote – I kiss
you gently. I have no phone at home and at work. Phone on work has
only internal connection. The line with the Internet has only an exit
in the Internet, but has no phone for conversations. This telephone
line is connected to the Taganrog center of telecommunication, but we
have no telephone lines for the international connection. To find a
way to call difficultly for me. If I would live in Moscow or Saint
Petersburg, I could find phone, but here a telephone system is
undeveloped. I will search for a way anyhow. I already wrote you that
at first I studied your language at school because in Russia the
studying of foreign language is the obligatory program. After school I
have continued studying at university, then on special rates of the
English language. It’s my hobby. I have been studying your language
for 18 years. I have not understood what you meant when you asked me
to tell that I am real? Your words really offend me. What you meant
when you say that I can be not real? Of course I am real. And why I
should deceive you? I do not understand why I can deceive you? I am
looking for serious relations. But any relations begin with
friendship. Any relations are based on trust, friendship, sincerity,
fidelity. And I do not understand, how possibly to deceive if the
purpose - relations, friendship and maybe the love. Anybody never
during all my life could not reproach me in lie. I cannot lie and I do
not see in it any purpose. And of course your words offend me. I had
in my life a lot of insults and humiliations and I have no desire and
time to play games. Here I have been surrounded with the lie often.
And I hate lie. I think that sincerity and trust - the strongest base
in any relations, especially in relationship of a man and a woman. I
do not know why you have asked me if I am for real. You offend me.
Today I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want
to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying
something wrong may do that. I always speak directly from my heart but
sometimes, words must be chosen carefully. I feel somewhat lost when
I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my
soul,
I feel contentment and joy when I think of you. I have never done this
in
my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world),
but
I am more than willing to learn whatever is need to succeed, if it is
your
desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends,
which trust and share with each other everything that they feel.
I don't know if my word and thoughts make sense to you; and for me so
hard
to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe
in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to be ready
for
meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life in loving, to
better value him, respect him and cherish the love that he would give
me;
only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters
are
not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my
thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I wish to know you
on
the more intimate level, I would like you to share your true dreams,
your
hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with
you on a level that goes way beyond simply friendship. Please don't
think
that I am fool for thinking these things, I believe that to succeed in
anything, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you.
Could you seriously close your eyes for just a minute, and think and
dream
of what a life we could share, what it would be like,- the fun of
learning
each other. I really believe that dreams really come true for the
people
that dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them enough
hard, dreams could become in reality. Here, where I was raised, the
gift
of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage
or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people
can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words.
I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to
you,
I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say,
and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I
wanted
to share with you. Greg, I want to tell that you are very beautiful
for me. I mean the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal
world.
It is a type of beauty that is very special and rare. Most men have
only
appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty
is.
This is what for me is the most important and significant in all limits
of my character, my soul and my consciousness. I think that you are
truly
handsome, in the sence of what beauty should be. I want to reduce
essence
of my entire letter only to one thought. I don't know if I could
clearly
explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I
want
to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy
our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you
suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough
for simple friendship. It's the way I feel. I'll look forward to your
reply as always with anticipation and impatience....
I hope that your reply will not have of a harsh nature, and I look
forward
of its arrival. With tenderness, Your Mariya.
THE TWELVETH LETTER:
Hi Greg!
Your letter means so much for me. Thank you. I so waited your letter
and
so wanted to find out what you will tell me. You remember I told to
you about the woman with the child which works in our clinic? her name
Elena.
Thanks for your words and thanks for your feelings. Your words have
touched my heart and have penetrated into depth of my soul. Thanks for
your
sincerity and tenderness. And thank you for your feelings! I never
thought that
in the world there is a man who can make me feel like flower only by
means
of words. Thank you that you have brought spring into my heart!
Greg, today I write to you with special worry but as well with
pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you
today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter
I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried to not show
it,
I think you have noticed it. Greg, I was sad because the boss informed
me that approximately in three weeks the accounting department will be
closed
for full re-equipment and repair. And when he have told me it, I
thought
my heart will stop, because when it will take place, I will not be able
to communicate with you during several months! And it has brought
infinite
sadness into my heart. But after my boss informed me about close of
accounting department, the accounting department informed me that
approximately in
two weeks I will get my vacation! When I thought that I can lose you
for
some months, inside my soul I at once have felt that I can't simply
accept
it. And I have felt that together with sadness in my heart has appeared
an other feeling - feeling of confidence, desire to make new steps
instead
of simply waiting for something. I have understood that our relations
are
important for me much more than I thought. And it so wonderfully. I had
no
vacation for two years. And now I will have vacation. But a thoughts
that
I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and
to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that
I can't endure. I talked with Svetlana and she has asked me what I
think to do.
And when she has asked me it, I have understood that inside my soul I
already
know the answer to this question. And I have told that I do not want to
spend
such a long-awaited vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought
that
I will not talk to you Greg during of month or two. And I have told
that I want to meet you Greg! I have told her that I want to spend
my vacation with you Greg! I can come to you, and we can spend time
together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I will tell you
about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see
me
or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Svetlana have told,
that
you Greg and I are such a good friends, our relations are built on
sincerity, therefore Greg will be happy to spend time with me. And I
really think that it would be delightfully. So, what you will say,
Greg,
if I will offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to
spend
with me several days? I cannot imagine at all how it would be
wonderful.
You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life.
We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands,
tell
each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars
in the
night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply
sit
on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together...
I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of again
be lonely without you and our friendship. I simply want to meet you.
I already knew and I have been told earlier, but I have found out again
all I need to do to come to your country. I already have the passport.
And
I will avoid usual procedure of visa's approval. Being the doctor, I
can
ask the visa on behalf of our Ministry of Health, because if the
applicant
have good official support from official bodies, if the applicant have
official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference,
seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some months the
decision of the commission, and will remove all problems connected with
necessity to prove that the purpose of travel is not emigration. Being
the
doctor I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Health of
Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor. Of course
I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect
improbable
quantity of documents, to find as many as possibly of other official
legal
persons, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if
I will quickly collect all necessary documents, I will get the visa in
one
or two weeks! So I have filed an application for the visa, Greg, with
happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with
me!
I do not ask you about anything. I will use my monetary savings and I
will
make everything by self. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden.
Would you be happy to spend some days with me soon, Greg? Anyway, we
must meet. It is possible to wait eternally. But I believe that I will
get
my vacation not accidentally; and I believe that the accounting
department will be
closed at the same time not accidentally as well. It is not
coincidence!
It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take new step.
Maybe
such opportunity will not be repeated again. I so long waited my
vacation
and I want my vacation to be especial. What can be better than a
meeting of
two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank
destiny
that I have got such an opportunity,- an opportunity to meet my dear
friend,
the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to
enjoy
time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the
beginning of something new in our lifes and in our relations. And I am
really
happy to get a vacation because it is time which I can spend in any way
I want,
and I want to spend this vacation with you Greg! So what will you tell?
Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me?
Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with pleasure. Your sincere Mariya.
THE THIRTEENTH LETTER:
Hi my Greg!
I waited for your letter with fear and with pleasure at the same time!
And I am very happy to receive your letter! I am ready to jump and
dance,
laugh and sing songs! And the reason - you Greg! Thank you for your
letter and your thoughts. I have only two real friends - Svetlana and
Irina.
I see Irina much less than Svetlana because Irina works as the
conductor in a train and when she on work, we do not see her for 4
days.
When she comes back, she usually very much tired and has only two days
for
rest, and then again 4 days in a way. Therefore I usually see her once
a week.
I am so happy that we will meet. Now I have the ocean of emotions and I
at all
do not know what to say. I am worried very much. I very much hope that
we can
perfectly spend time together. I only am afraid, that if we will meet,
I will asks
so many questions and to chatter unceasingly, that you soon will escape
from me.
I get my vacation once a year. My vacation will begin approximately
about December, 11. At this time I can arrive to you. But unfortunately
the
schedule of my vacation is not flexible. Therefore I hope you will be
glad
to meet me at this time. If you have not enough time, I will be happy
all the same.
I will be happy in any case. It is better to wait when you will come
from work,
than to sit in my apartment and to know that nobody will come!!!
Duration of my vacation is 24 workdays. But quantity of days which I
can
spent with you depends on when I will get my vacation and when I will
order the ticket. How many days you want to be with me?
I have submitted the visa application. It will take about one or two
week I think.
Complexity of approval of the visa will be reduced to a minimum as I
will have
petitions and characteristics from a work place, from respected
organizations
and legal persons; guarantee documents and a various sort of the
information and inquiry, which will give to commissions the confidence,
that my intentions is not emigration. I will get the petition and a
testimonial
from Ministry of Health of Russian Federation! It is a respected
structure
and any person working in the field of medicine is under care of the
Ministry.
Except of that I will pay for preparation for interview with the
commission.
Every day I think - what my friend Greg will tell me today, what mood
he will have today? And as soon as I get free minute, I rush to
accounting department
to find out if you have written to me or not. And when I receive your
letter, I start to smile from ear to ear anticipating the best time of
my day - time when I read your letter and when I write to you the all
my
thoughts. These are the most important minutes of my day. And these
minutes I don't hear anything and I don't see anything except of lines
and
paragraphs which in my mind will be transformed into small movie, movie
about you, my dear Greg. And you cannot imagine at all how it
wonderfully! Sometimes I think, what would be if I have not found the
boldness in myself to write you? What would be if I didn't believe that
I can find a man in such a way? I always want to think that I the
courageous
woman, but I feel that actually it is not so. I am ready to give my
life
for the sake of person who are close and dear for me, I am ready to
donate
my well-being for the sake of well-being of other person but when I
think
of myself, I often become timid and all my boldness disperses like the
fire's smoke. I am often afraid to make something, to take some step
simply because of fear that it will be an incorrect step. I am often
afraid to ask people about anything simply because of fear to get the
negative answer. Not always, but it happens. What would happen, if you
have not answered my first letter? Nothing would happen! And grey
monotonous days again would lie on a way of my life by infinite
impenetrable veil. Do you want to know what I did today? First off, I
should tell that I slept with a smile on my face! At least when I have
woken up and have looked at the mirror, I have noticed that I smile!
Then,
I cleaned a teeth and I had smile! Then, I jog and I smiled as if
actually
I watched funny movie. Then, I have cooked a breakfast and drank a
coffee
with a smile on my face! Then, I have come to clinic, and I could not
hide
my smile. I was ready to laugh and I at all had no desire to work! It
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