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Hello I am a single male living in Colorado. I was contacted by Alena Sokolowa through Yahoo personals just a few days after signing up for their service. I found your site as I was trying to send her the money which she requested to purchase her plane ticket. MoneyGram had not honored my first transaction for $247 for a fraud alert had been issued. She then requests the money through Western Union. In the panic which is created in this scam I put the money on he wire but came home and immediately got back on this site and found some of my very precious and dear Alena's letters. Although the ones sent to me have seemed to evolve a little more, there are still flaws if you pay close attention to details. Other names she has used: Elena Slesareva, Anastasia Karpets, Yana Kantonistova, Elena Fillipova, Elena Baranova, Inna Ryabakova, Inna Sergeevna, Olga Zhukova, Olga Zukova, Ekaterina Zaytseva, Irina Alekstrova, Olga Smirnova, Olga Germanova and Marina Firsova. I have found all of these names on this site, all but the last one and have found it through reading letters and not looking solely at pictures. The letters are evolving into a much more sophisticated story of a woman living in terrible frightening situation in a small village in Russia that you want to get her out of. They use different pictures of women as well. I have learned that Elena Sokolowa is a famous Russian iceskater, she just changed the first letter of her name. I start with her first letter after she contacted me through the profiles and I responded. Thisletter is how I usually find her or them or who ever, always apologizes "beforehand" for the poor English. This is as far as I have gotten with this person and am talking with authorities to see if I can stop this person. Be careful guys. How can we alert people signing up for the internet dating services as they are signing up about such scams...just to let them know these guys are out there.
September 15 2004
Hi, my new friend, XXXX! I really hope that I not too late because I understand that some time has gone after my first letter. I very much want to apologize for I have not answered at once and have maybe offended you thus. I sincerely hope that you still remember me and my small letter and I really have hope that you still want to learn me, and may be to tell me about yourself because your answer means for me that your heart openly to search of new friends just as my heart is open to that. I understand that in opportuneness of my answer to your letter could change your interest, but unfortunately I at all had no opportunity to answer you at once as I use a service computer, and sometimes I simply have no access to this computer. But I want to tell, that I was sincerely glad to receive your answer and I am very grateful to you that you has not left my letter without your attention. I feel itself a little awkwardly, going in other part of my letter, because my thoughts and my desire to find a close friend by such way, mixs with my uncertainty because of absence of experience in dialogue by such way. How to build dialogue, what to tell about itself, what questions to ask so that to not offend by question casually? What is interesting for you first of all? May be my nationality? Or creed, or may be - those vital vicissitudes which has led me and you here so that now we write to each other? Anyhow, to answer all questions, to tell about life, about internal world just in the one letter is impossibly. Therefore I think time will help both of us. I will simply begin to tell about myself,- all that I think is interesting to you. Even being confident that you remember my name I will tell again. My name is Alena. I am 30 years old. My birthday is August, 1 1974. I think
XXXX, as I have sent you a picture, the first thing that you did when have received my letter - have looked at my picture, don't you? (Smile). Any picture possesses unchallengeable advantage - ability to tell about the person and about features of appearance better of any words. But I feel necessity to add some words. I am little worried that my appearance is not what you are looking for. But I nevertheless hope to receive your answer where you will tell that my appearance not the most awful that you saw in your life! (Smile). My hair is light brown. My eyes are green. I have average height - 168 sm (I think it is 5.53 foots). My weight about 53 kg (probably 116 pounds). My nationality is Russian. You asked if I live in America. But I thought that I have written in profile - Vladikavkaz, Russian Federation. Really there isn't it there? But as far as I remember, I wrote that I live in Vladikavkaz, but not in America. I have simply specified at random a place where I wanted to seek a friend, and maybe because of it you have thought that I am living there? Please forgive me, if I incorrectly informed you about my residence. After I have written to you, I even did not visit my profile anymore. I haven't experience in it. Please, don't be angry with me. May be I really have made something incorrectly in my profile, because I never did it before, and after I have filled up my profile I even did not know how to check up all that I have written there. I wanted to find my other half, I created my profile only to write my letter to you, and I was not absolutely attentive because I knew that as soon as you will write me, I will simply cancel my profile because I will not need profile anymore. I thought you already know that I live in Russia. But if not, should admit, that I slightly am afraid that having found out about my nationality and residence you will be disappointed. Maybe you haven't likings to Russian women, maybe cultural distinctions are unacceptable for you, maybe the distance for you is a major factor for the beginning friendship and relationship. But I sincerely hope that it not so. I am Russian woman, but I as well have red blood, my heart beats in the same rhythm; and my soul as well needs warmth and tenderness, just as soul of any woman on a planet Earth. Maybe you will not write me anymore. But I am sure that the cultural distinctions are not a barrier for friendship,- on the contrary! I am sure that distance in the modern world is not more than simply a length on a map. I sincerely hope that your heart is open to new people, even if it is a Russian woman who doesn't live in the street nearest to your home! And if you still want to communicate with me, it will mean for me, that the distance and nationality does not limit border of your soul! And it would be wonderful! I do not know if you are familiar with geography of Russia. I live in republic Northern Ossetia (Alania) on the north of the Big Caucasus (south of the European part of Russia). I live in collective farm Ursdon, but it is too small settlement and hardly for you it can serve as a landmark (smile). Ursdon is located between Vladikavkaz and Nalchik, near to such villages as Dur-Dur, Digora. The capital of our republic - Vladikavkaz. We borders on republics Kabardino-Balkariya (Nalchik is the capital), Caucasian Georgia, Ingushetia. I think it's a time to finish a lesson of geography (smile) and to tell about other not less significant things. And the main thing that I want to tell now is that I have written to you not with the purpose to have fun and entertainment. I never considered myself a courageous woman,- and to dare to write to you is was a courageous step for me because it is new turn in my life and I do not know what waits for me after that turn. What has led me to this? I know many people who has no home or has no opportunity to have many things which other people can have. But, answering question - "Are you happy?" - they with pride and tenderness spoke - " YES, I Am happy. My house and my hearth is the heart of my friend; my bed and my riches is the heart of my beloved ". I have home. I can have many things, but I do not want it. And, answering the same question I cannot tell "YES". Because there are things without which people cannot to be happy. And I - an example because material things never was able to make me happy. I need another, and without it I do not feel happiness in heart. And I think you understand what I am speaking about. I really have serious desire to find a man of my heart, and first of all of course - a friend, because I am sure up to depth of my soul that any relations are based exactly on friendship and trust. My heart is open and I with all sincerity am ready to share my thoughts and of course I would be very glad to learn more about you because I think it - the best way to build any relations. And I really hope that just as I you have desire to try to find in me a friend and may be more. Nobody knows what the future has prepared for each of us, don't you agree? I do not know if you think that I am worthy of dialogue with you. I never had similar relations before and maybe I said something incorrectly. If so, please forgive me. And probably, before to ask you any questions, first I should explain more clearly why I have written to you and what has led me to this? But I also understand what to do it briefly simply impossibly. I will be very glad if you will write me, will tell as well about yourself. What has led you to seeking by such way? Would you still like to correspond with me or russian woman is not for you? (It is already my questions (smile)). Where on a map your house is located? Do you enjoy your profession? By the way, I have forgotten to tell you that I am a doctor of virus and infectious diseases. What interests do you have? I hope my questions are not above of a verge of admissibility? (smile). I thank you beforehand for your answers. I as well will tell you more about me if you will write. And of course I want as well to have some your pictures in my computer, therefore I will be very glad and grateful if you will send me sometimes your pictures(not that in profile (smile)). Thank you! I will hope you will not leave my letter without your answer. With the best regards.
Sept 19th 2004
Hi XXXX! First of all - Thank you! I am very glad that you have decided to answer. I had big hope that you will answer me, but I hadn't big belief that it will happen. Therefore thank you.
XXXX, I hope I write my thoughts clearly. Please, if I write with mistakes, do not be angry with me. English language is my second language and though I adore this language, I nevertheless do not know it ideally. But I try! I study your language since 7 years old age. But I know that my English is far from perfect. So please, don't be too strict, ok? (Smile). I wanted to tell so many things, but now I sit and I do not know what to tell. I am simply glad. I know that I simply should tell more about me, about my character, about my interests as I promised. And I really hope that it interestingly for you, because for me as well would be interestingly to learn about you as much as possible. Thank you for your picture. It is a fine picture. You are a strong and handsome man. I very much like this picture. It is wonderful, when a man combines force and charm. It happens so seldom. Forgive me for my frank words. But I always speak what I think. I think there is nothing bad in it. You have pleasant appearance and it is wonderful. Your dog is a very beautiful dog with clever eyes! You are perfectly looked together! You asked me if I ever been to America? My knowledge of other countries is limited by television show. Unfortunately outside Russia I was not. Likely it is very interesting. When I leave somewhere from city even if it is not far from my city, I am glad very much. Hardly this can be named travel. But, for me is so. I am able enjoy what I have. You asked why I have chosen you to talk to. Why not? Why you are so surprised? You have placed your profile, and it means that you had hope in your heart that somebody will write you, don't you? So, why you are surprised? You aren't glad? You think that the best person is one who has written in the profile more than others or who has written more beautifully than other people? I do not think so. I think everyone has own manner of expression of thoughts. Someone has talent and writes amazingly beautifully, someone is shy, shy in behavior, shy in dialogue manner, shy in judgments. Someone able to express his thoughts on a paper very easily, but for someone it's easier to tell than to write. And all these people are looking for other half. And everyone must conclude the own characteristic into one small paragraph. For me it is absurd. The borders of paragraph have influence upon sub-consciousness of any one, and people automatically tries to write only the most attractive words just to attract first attention of the interested person. There are thousands persons, profiles; millions of lines, similar among themselves; millions of various destinies and hearts, hidden behind of one small paragraph. And if you think that to understand soul and heart of the person enough to read one small paragraph, I will not agree with you. This small paragraph hides behind itself the whole human life. How it is possible to judge the person on several lines? How it is possible to understand depth of his soul? Not. The profile it's only a cover of the "book''. But the main thing in any book is the contents, but not a cover. To judge the book on a cover is wrongly. It is my opinion. I have written to you and there is nothing surprising in it. I am emotional person, and usually I am not able to hide my positive emotions. I do not know if it good or bad, but if I feel pleasure, if I have good mood I allow to know about it to everybody. Though at the same time if I am upset or have any troubles, I as a rule hide it in myself and I try to make so that other people did not know about it. The friend of mine (her name is Olga) says that it is bad feature because people should not hold bad emotions inside. So maybe I should learn to share some things with people with whom I feel convenient to do it? How do you think
XXXX? People here often share with me their difficulties, and not only because I am doctor (I mean that usually people are inclined to trust doctors), but also because I am always ready to listen to people and to share their pain. I cannot be indifferent when someone has a pain, not only physical but emotional also. I always talk to people with a smile and people think that I am an absolutely happy woman. But it is not so, and in my soul I often feel loneliness and sadness. I hope very much that you understand what I try to say. I not always can express briefly all what I want to tell, especially if I express my thoughts and emotions. It is a part of my character and probably not the best part of.
XXXX, how you would describe your character? I never tried to describe features of my character to somebody. Maybe I do it ridiculously, maybe it is not what you would like to hear? I have no children and I was never married, though of course I was in relationship and even thought that it will lead me to the happy future. But now I haven't anything except of bad and painful memoirs. (All in all it was just a brick in the wall ... - these are good words that I like very much). But I live with a smile on my face and with hope in my heart. I think I can consider myself an optimist. And maybe it has helped me to dare to write you. I saw a great deal in my life, and for 30 years I have passed through a lot of vital tests. And I know that I do not need many things to be happy. All I need is a man, friend, soul-mate, love. And my life has led me to the fact that now I seeks it in such way. And I do not think it is bad. How do you think? What to tell about me? I am versatile person and I have many interests. I like music very much and I like to sing. I am very glad that I began to study English language because it has opened for me the broadest world of the finest music and poetry because all greatest singers and bands are English-speaking. My unconditional favorites - Roger Waters and David Gilmore. I very much like Mark Knopfler, Queen, Witney Houston, Roxette, Sting and many other singers, including Russian, but I think, their names for you will be not the most familiar (smile). I like classical music. And of course I like movie. American movie outside of any doubts - the greatest. Castaway, Pretty Woman, Dragonfly, the Scent of a Woman, Stepmother, K-PAX are some my favorites. My hobbies are sport, cooking of meal (I adore to do it), books, sewing and knitting, camping. My education - school, then the medical university (one of the best in Russia) the faculty of virus and infectious diseases, and after that - doctor's specialization (intern). And now I work as the doctor in small clinic. And here I use a computer. Basically I work 5 days in a week - since Monday till Friday and these are days when I can use a computer, though sometimes I go to work even in the days off. But I am not sure if I can use a computer in the days off but if you want, I will try! (Smile). This computer is located in laboratory and serves only for sending results of analyses to Vladikavkaz, therefore we have Internet only a few times per day. And it is really sad.
XXXX, can I ask you, what are you looking for in a woman? And are you looking for a soul-mate? How many times you already tried to find a friend or soul-mate in such way? And how many friends you have on the Internet? (I think in the greater degree I ask about women (smile)). Do you love your family
XXXX? How often you meet your family? Forgive me please if I have asked something personal. With sincere pleasure and gratitude for your letter.
Sept 20th 2004 they send again the same letter after this message
My friend. I send you again a letter that I sent you some time back. I wait your answer very much. I do not know why you have not answered me. Maybe you simply have no time. Maybe my letter has not reached you. Therefore I have just in case decided to send this letter once again. But if the reason because of which you don't write me is your unwillingness to continue to talk to me, or my pictures has not satisfied your interest, I ask you to tell me about it because I still have hope to correspond with you. Forgive me magnanimously if it looks like absence of patience. I did not want to irritate you. Simply I am not sure if you have received my letter. Sincerely.
Sept. 23 2004
I XXXX! Today definitely good day - day of dialogue with my friend
XXXX! (Smile). How it is wonderful to receive something that you really wait. And in a case with me it of course your letter! Thank you! Today was a difficult day, and dialogue with you removes my physical weariness. The quantity of patients has considerably increased for some last years. Because of war with Georgia and because of frequent acts of terrorism in Vladikavkaz and in the Chechen Republic that is near to us, very a lot of people leave their houses. They go to live in the remote areas, in foothills and impassable districts. They simply build small barracks where they lives even without an electricity in absolutely unsuitable conditions for a life. And it certainly becomes the reason of a plenty of diseases. The sad fact. Sometimes I want our president Putin to live here instead of the Kremlin, simply to understand what life is. Maybe in this case all wars would end much faster? Except of that, as the sanitary conditions here in an critical position, I think I could become his personal doctor! (smile! I am just kidding. Actually I respect our president and I do not want him to be ill). Forgive me that I tell you about our problems, simply I write all what in my head. If you do not like to read about it - simply tell me. By the way
XXXX I have asked you about your family in my last letter because it really interestingly for me, as all my family has passed away. My parents were military, mom was the military doctor, father was the officer and we hadn't constant house because they very often got the notice about new place of service, in places with the military conflict. Therefore my childhood was not very cheerful. We lived in temporary habitation outside of zone of conflict, therefore sometimes I did not see my parents some weeks, and I was at home absolutely alone, being an eight-year girl. Therefore since the early childhood I am able to cook, sew, knit and do any heavy physical work. Now I absolutely agree that it's correctly said that:"All that does not make us dead makes us stronger". Don't you agree
XXXX? When father got new place of service near to Kazakhstan, I have gone to study in the good medical university in Tomsk. I lived in student's hotel on distance of 600 kilometers from my parents. But we had meeting some times in the year. Three years later my parents got new place of service and have left to live in the Northern Ossetia. And I saw my parents only once in one year. At university for the first time in my life I have found a true friend (it is Olga) who is my best and reliable friend till now. We have together passed through a hard time when have been compelled to study and work in the evening and at night,- just to support itself. I madly missed my parents because I loved them very much. After ending of university I was to get direction for specialization (intern) in Tomsk area, but I have received the letter from mom where she informed that daddy has been killed in military collision. I will not say what I have felt at that moment, but there is nothing worse than to find out about death of the parent from the letter. After that I began to live with mom because I was afraid to leave her lone at such difficult period. Olga has refused specialization in Tomsk area to be with me and we together had intern period in Vladikavkaz. One and a half year ago my mom was killed in the street by some scoundrel who are not caught till now. I will not describe all pain and suffering which I had at that time. Simply I want to tell that all ups and downs, all pleasures and misfortunes that were in my life have led me to who I am now. The destiny was not tender with me, but I am grateful to my destiny for my parents, I am grateful to my destiny for my friend Olga, because it really a gift of destiny. And I hope
XXXX you are not angry with me that I talk to you about it? It is my life and it is a part of me. And how you would learn me more if I would not tell you it, really? And I as well would be glad to learn more about you. Your life is very interesting to me. Are you grateful to destiny for anything in your life
XXXX? How often you become tired? Do you like the nature, rivers and lakes, woods and mountains? Are you religious person
XXXX? I will wait for your letter so please write me soon! Sincerely and with the best regards. Your friend (I hope)
Sept. 25 2004 On a Saturday
Hi XXXX! I write only a few words to tell that obviously we had some problems with the Internet, but now everything is all right. However I did not receive your answer to my last letter, and I think the reason is problems that we had. I ask you if you very much, please, if you sent me your letter, please, send it once again. I so wait for your letter. Now I can receive it without problems. I am sure that you wrote, but I have not received it. But I work this weekend and maybe I even can write you. But I very much wait for your letter and if you have an opportunity, please, send me your letter once again. In my last letter I have told you about my life, about my family. I also have sent you two pictures - "me_and_daddy's_cap" and "me_mom". If you received this letter from me and have answered, please, send me this letter again because I did not receive your answer to this letter. But now I will receive it absolutely precisely! Thank you, and forgive me that I disturb you. But I really wait for your letter. And I will be very glad to receive it! Sincerely and with the best regards. Have a wonderful weekend!
September 28 2004
Hi XXXX! What a pleasant surprise! You cannot imagine how I am glad to receive your letter. I was not sure that I will be able to receive your letter today because already evening, and I only right now has come back to clinic. Today was "a trip day". You likely think that it is a day of rest? No,
XXXX, it is a day of a hard work. But we do it with pleasure. Every week some employees of our clinic (as a rule it is two doctors of various specialization and laboratory assistant who takes all analyses) and some local inhabitants are going together to various remote small settlements which are located in mountains or in a thicket of a forest. Here a lot of such settlements, but the only one way to get there - with the help of horses and donkeys because there are no roads there. In such settlements always many sick people, basically are small children or old and weak feeble people, whose life completely depends on other people. And of course to transport such people to clinic on the horses is impossibly. Therefore local inhabitants meet us with donkeys and horses in foothills or near zone of dense forest and see off us into settlements to a people needing help. All these people look at each of us as if each of us is God. They very much love us and wait. But it is really the hard work if to take into account that we leave there at 6 am, and we come back sometimes even after 10 pm! And sometimes it is necessary to go on foot up to 10-15 kilometers in one direction. hat is why now I have no forces even to smile. That is why I have told you, that your letter is really a wonderful surprise! Even though now I hardly will come home earlier 11 pm as I write you this letter! (Smile) I feel that I began to say silly things? Likely I already have tired you? Yes, I have found you on a map! And it is very interesting. You are in the center of the country! My religion is Orthodox Christian. I go to church as a rule some times in a month. It not often, but I think it not the main thing if in the heart there is belief. My mom since the childhood tried to impart to me the belief in God; but my belief has come into my heart at conscious age. I cannot tell that I very pious person. I believe and my belief comes from my heart. I think each person believe anyway, but someone goes in church every day and reads Bible every day while someone goes in church only when the soul really need it. And everyone believes in God's fairness. And I think any belief is right, if it helps the person to remove pain from soul. Not important how often the person goes to church and reads Bible. The main thing is what in your heart. The main thing is to live in the consent with laws of conscience and honor alongside with Laws of God. And has no value how the person believes. The main thing if belief brings the peace in heart of the person. You say I did not answer some your questions. Forgive me if it so, but I always try to answer all your questions. Maybe I wanted to answer, but have forgotten, because I write letters during all day by small parts when I receive free minute. Maybe therefore I forgotten to answer some your questions, especially when I start to tell about myself. But I always try to answer your questions. Maybe I choose manner not so accessible to you, maybe my words are ambiguous, but anyhow I never leave your questions without comments. I have re-read your letters and I do not see questions which I have not answered.
XXXX, I am afraid that I will be writing to you during all night, because for me our dialogue is a rest by soul and body! It is good that tomorrow I can sleep so long as I want, because after "trip day" we can come to clinic after a lunch break. My favourite day of week is Friday, because two next days - days off (though not always) and I can restore my vital forces and energy. So the days off for me - a holiday! Though now I do not feel pleasure when I think of the days off because these are days when I maybe can't receive the letter from my friend
XXXX! (Smile). But you likely will be happy when the days off will come, because these are days when you will not receive boring letters from one boring woman whose name is Alena! (Smile). Am I right?
XXXX, can you imagine, while I write you right now this letter, Olga (I told to you about her) has fallen asleep right in an armchair opposite to me! She works together with me and we always work in the one group in "trip day". She has told she will wait till I finish to write my letter to you, and now she simply sleeps! She is a true friend. But I will not talk about her as I am not sure if you want to hear about my friends. But she is really now the most dear person in my life, like the sister. She waits for me because just as I, she lives in collective farm Ursdon not far from me. Usually we spend the days off together. I like the nature very much. I always spend a lot of time on the nature though I have such opportunity seldom. I like to read books, or simply to enjoy music and make various homework. I like to walk simply in the park or simply to be in my bed all day long (smile). I like camping, sunsets and sunrises, life in a tent, the smell of the river and bulrushes, a rustle of a small waterfall; night starry sky and amazing brilliance of a fish dissecting a water surface of a small lake under captivating moon light. It is very beautiful and romantic.
XXXX, do you like to be romantic? I hope yes. I like fire and I am sure that there is nothing more tasty than a meal cooked on a fire or firebrands. And when air is filled with aroma of the forest and timber raspberry, river freshness and a smoke of the campfire, all this brings into my soul the feeling of freedom, and untamable desire to live. I know I already talked about my liking to cooking. I know many recipes and I like our national cuisine. I like peppery meal, meal with seasonings, east cuisine and of course Abkhazian cuisine. Here it is very popular.
XXXX, do you love a tasty meal? What kind of meal you like? Does the way to your heart lay through the stomach? (smile) If so, I think I have not bad chances! (Smile).
XXXX, I must go, because the darkness has already covered all around and if I will miss last bus from clinic, I will need to go on foot some kilometers in absolutely deserted and terrible places, and it is very dangerous. Certainly I together with Olga, but just as I, she is simply the woman. Earlier I even had the big dog that protected me and my apartment. I loved this dog very much, but neighbours have poisoned him and I have decided to not have a dog anymore because here a lot of malicious people, and I do not want my dog to be poisoned again. I like animals, especially horses. What is the funnest thing that you like to do
XXXX? What event in your life you till now recollect with laughter? Oh, I have promised you to finish my letter, but instead of it I write again and again. Please, forgive me. I will wait for your letter with hope! I hope your day will be filled with sun warmth and human kindness! Your friend Alena. P.S. I don't know what the time difference is, but we have Moscow time.
October 1 2004 Notice that they answer your questions with a paragraph at begining of the letter or with a p.s
Hi my dear friend XXXX! I so waited for your letter and I'm so glad that you have written to me! Thank you. Every new day brings to me stronger desire to communicate with you and to receive your letters. And now my mood depends directly on your letters! My mood in your hands
XXXX! (Smile). I hope my letters do not spoil your mood? Thank you for new picture. I already spoke, that you a handsome man. Your new picture confirms my words. You really very charming and attractive a man and to look at you is very pleasant. Renee and Emily are very beautiful ladies! Thank you for your offer to send me anything but I do not need anything! I am so happy that you are romantic. I think that in the modern rigid and cold world a man should be necessarily romantic, because the man's romanticism is much finer than female romanticism. In Russia as a rule romantic - a woman. Romantic man in Russia is outsider. Unfortunately. Therefore I am simply happy to find out that you are romantic. Believe me, it is the big rarity.
XXXX, I want to tell that I am really glad that I have found such friend as you. And I am very glad to talk to you about everything. In my life always was only one true friend - Olga, and she always gave me her support. But now I have two friends, and I am very glad. Today I have been a little alarmed, because Olga has not come for work. It is a little strange because only the serious circumstances could become the reason of that. She loves work very much and does not like to stay at home. I simply worry that she got ill or has some troubles. Yesterday we have spent evening together and everything was normally. We live not far from each other. And if we spend evening here, in Ursdon, it means that we sit at home because as a whole Ursdon for us it is simple a place for spending nights. It is a very small place, only a few houses. We have here only one small grocery shop - the only one our pride (smile). There is not anything more here. I cannot tell that I do not like this place. The air here is very good and clean, very silent place and beautiful nature. Though certainly here not so safely and a lot of malicious people, especial men. But I during all my life lived in many places, and I do not know why, but Russian men always very malicious, especially when they drunk. And of course here a lot of Chechens. For this reason I had a big dog earlier. But I like Ursdon all the same. And I am even not sure if I like more the small place in the middle of the forest, or I like more the big city. Olga does not like Ursdon and dreams to live in the big city, with cinemas, museums, parks, with beautiful houses and shops, with attractions. She likes cars roar and hum of people's crowd. And I love it as well, but I like as well our river and our forest, our air, our silence, singing of birds behind my window. I never could make the choice between of fast life of the big city and silence of small village.
XXXX, what you like more, the big city or the small village? By the way, my apartment is in the wooden house where except of my apartment there is one more apartment - my neighbours. It is the old house but my apartment cosy. I have a bedroom, kitchen and a bathroom with a toilet. Of course it is a small apartment, but I live alone and I love my apartment. I have a kitchen garden where I cultivate vegetables (carrots, tomatoes, garlic and an onions), berries. Therefore in the winter I do not buy a potato in the market at all! If Olga and I have a lot of free time, we go to the big settlements or even to Vladikavkaz. We like to go to movie, we like simply to walk in the parks, we like to swim in small lake with turquoise water. Olga just as I is 30 years old, but sometimes we simply turn into children. In the winter we often ride sleigh from huge snow hills together with children. Believe me
XXXX, it is very funny and I am sure that if in your soul still lives "a little boy", you would enjoy it as well. We like to ski and ice-skate. Every year in the summer we go to festival of guitar songs that carry out very far from us - on the river "Volga" near city of Samara. It is a very beautiful festival. Thousands people lives in tents on coast of the river. And during several days the most known guitar players and singers of Russia together with simple people who at all does not know each other sing own songs for each other. Everyone cook a meal on campfire and everyone invites each other to test their own meal. Delightful atmosphere of kindness and peace. If we spend time here, in Ursdone, we like to sew and knit together. Olga sews perfectly as well, and usually she makes the order to me and I make the order to her, i.e. she explains me what dress she wants, and I sew to her such dress. And I explain to her what I want and she sews it for me!
XXXX, are you able o play a chess? I like to play a chess and checkers. I think you would not have chances in game with me! (Smile). I very much love sports. I jog since the childhood, every morning in the winter and in the summer except of days when a strong rain or very low temperature in the winter. I like to support my figure and I really have good health. I lived in various climatic zones of Russia. I have no car and always I spend a lot of time at the air. I do not smoke, and sports in my life always takes a significant place. I like to play football, I like to skate and a ski, I adore swimming! I am a fine swimmer! And if we would swim together with you, you would have the big problem if would try to catch me in the water! (Smile). I equally well swim on a water surface and under water, not with an aqualung of course, simply having detained breath. The only I want to learn to do - I want to learn to box! It would give me biger courage on the dark street! Could you give me some lessons? (Smile).
XXXX, I have to finish my letter though I really do not want to do it. Right after work I will go to Olga to find out if she is ok. She will be glad when I will tell her that you again have written me! (Smile).
XXXX, do you have any regrets about anything that you did in your life, and would you like to change it? What make you happy? What brings pleasure to you? What is one thing you could not live without? I will wait your letter again, and I hope you will write me soon. Your friend
I skip ahead to October 18th, Typical block letter, does not make sence that I would have never gotten this letter before if she sent the letters after she wrote them everytime. This letter arrived with the next letter on the same day.
XXXX! I feel that you have not received this letter. I send it again. Hi my dear
XXXX! I was very happy to receive your letter. Thank you. Without your letters I feel so bad as if something is absent in my life as if something wrong. And when, like the award for my expectation, I receive your letter, all becomes good, all troubles become insignificant for me. Thanks for charming pictures!
XXXX, today I again have no a lot of time. Russia is the multinational country, just as America. But I cannot tell that I love a nationality, say, Georgian or Armenian or Tatar. I like white Caucasian race. In Russia basically all other nationalities are Muslim or not Caucasian race. As for Russian men - everyone in Russia knows that distinctive feature of Russian men is the roughness, rage, absence of such concepts as respect, kindness, delicacy in dialogue with lady. Of course there are men without similar demerits. But within of the whole country such men meet incredibly seldom. And in Russia a lot of women who cannot suffer and tolerate such style of a life. And for this reason very many Russian women try to find the destiny there where there are no those demerits which are inherent to our culture. I know myself, and I know that the roughness and rage are unacceptable for me. Certainly in Russia there are happy women who for some reasons suffer or simply do not notice, do not pay attention to similar factors. For example, for many ladies the most important is material welfare or the social status. But I know myself and I can tell - for me much more important absolutely other ideals. I think you understand me.
XXXX, I have time to tell you about the main thing that happened today. Today there was a wonderful morning. I even have woken up with a smile on my face. Behind a window I heard familiar twitter of sparrows, noise of an autumn wind, accompanied by rare silent knocks into my window,- as if someone scratches the glass of my window. I have approached to my window, and removed curtains. And I have seen, that simply in the street a strong wind tear down leaves from a tree and sometimes throws them onto my window. I was captivated by that. Leaves like magnificent butterflies attracted by the light, rans into my window and slowly falls downwards, being not able to break the cold armour of a windowpane. They as if looked at me, into my eyes, and begged me to open a window. And I, fascinated by it, simply stood and looked at them through my window, seeing off by glance everyone leaf. And for some reasons I have felt sadness in my heart. I stood and thought of you. Where is my friend
XXXX now? What's he doing? Who near to him now? Maybe he right now with someone, maybe he right now happy and cheerful, and even doesn't know that somewhere far, a girl with name Alena thinks of him... Or maybe my dear
XXXX sleeps right now, and sees me in his sleep-dream? And I wanted to become a leaf on a tree near to your house to give my life to irrepressible wind only in order that he would take me by his invisible hand and would bring to your window, so that I could peek into your window, even if only for one instant and to whisper:"Good night
XXXX!" And in the morning when you would wake up; when you would move away curtains of your window, you at once would understand that this night Alena was there, near to your window; it is she protected your night rest, cared about your sleep and has sent to you sweet-dreams... You would understand that it was she who has left for you this small part of her soul,- hardly observable sign,- fleeting reminder - one beautiful small gold autumn leaf, shivering on the glass of your window. And at this moment the new gust of wind has torn off two leafs from a tree and has carried them right onto my window. These leafs had one common branch - one small thin stalk, and it seemed that now the wind will break them off and will separate them, but they have not surrendered, did not obey a furious wind. And wind has brought these two leafs right onto my windowpane, but they have not fallen as all other leaves! They continued to hang in the middle of a windowpane,- two wonderful leafs connected by one stalk! And I looked at them with amazement; and it seemed to me that wind have heard my thoughts. Two leafs, one of which is you
XXXX and another one is me. And if you XXXX will see a small beautiful leaf at your window, - be sure that it is my leaf, that I have sent you together with a wind caressing your face... Forgive me if it was a little sad. But I am slightly sad right now. I have a presentiment that tomorrow something will happen. And I do not know what, good or bad. I simply feel.
XXXX, I have to go. I send to you my thoughts, thoughts of you... Your Alena.
October 18 2004
Hi XXXX! I am sincerely glad to receive your letter. And I am very glad that I have an opportunity to write to you because I want to tell you so much today. I want to share with you so many things today.
XXXX, I always was sincere with you and I want to be sincere now because from the very beginning we built our friendship on the sincerity and openness. It is difficult to write about it because all emotions that now I try to transform into words are new for me. And for the first time in my life I try to explain things that I feel for the first time in my life. And I feel that I should be very exact and accurate in my words. I understand that in such a moment it is necessary to think over each word because even though I simply want to tell the truth, even though I simply want to tell sincerely everything what now is in my soul, I understand that the truth and sincerity can sometimes offend the person, bring disappointment. And I want you to understand all my thoughts correctly because I do not want to offend you and I do not want you to feel yourself awkwardly after my words.
XXXX, you are very dear to me, and I do not want to lose those relations that we have, because these relations are important for me. And all main emotions that often visit my heart, - pleasure and even happiness, disappointment and sadness, now depend only on one thing - presence of your letter. For the first time in my life I tried to start relationship with a man who so far away from me, relations where thoughts and feelings of each other take the main place as these are the only things that unite us together. And it is the best opportunity to become first of all friends, best friends,- with the open hearts, ready to share with each other sincerely all feelings and emotions. I try all this for the first time in my life and I do not know what waits me and you in the future, but I would be happy to have relationship with you, friendly and more, regardless of the fact what waits for each of us in the future. And I would be happy if you have such a desire as well. And even though I try to start such a relationship for the first time in my life, I already thank God for everything what I feel right now. It is very valuable for me. And I believe that everything that was in my life,- all ups and downs, all tests and losses have taught me to appreciate life and to be wise, to make decisions and to make a correct choice when the time of a choice comes. I think that I had to pass through this way - to be ready to meet a man who will become my soul and heart, with whom I will build the small world of love and tenderness, to whom I would give all my care, fidelity and infinite respect, with whom I would be up to death because he would give me the most important things in a life - the sincere love and care. These are the only things most important for me. And I am sure that these are the things that you appreciate as well. The beauty and external attractiveness are main things for many people, but my life has shown me that the main thing in the person is the internal beauty, beauty of his soul and heart. Not many people really possess internal beauty and not many people really understands that it is the most important and most unique quality,- quality helping to believe in miracles and in fairy tales, quality that makes people sincere and kind. This is what I was looking for in a man, it is what I put at the first place, it is a feature that could open my heart. And I want to tell,
XXXX, that you are a beautiful man, beautiful first of all as must be beautiful everyone true man. I speak first of all about beauty of your soul and heart. You are beautiful for me and that is why I already now thank Destiny that I has come to this crossroads of a life where I have met you. Now people have forgotten about many important things, and words "love" and "fidelity" have lost sense, have become simply words. I am not sure if you understand everything I try to tell, but I hope that my words do not offend you in any way. My words are not simply words, it is a part of my soul. And I feel that I want and I can open my soul to you. And I hope you feel the same. And I really wish to develop our relations, to go further, to learn each other at a new level, where friendship is only the first step. I want to go on the way that will not be limited only by friendship. I see new horizons, and I feel that I want to try to promote our relation further than to be simply friends. And I hope my words do not disappoint you because I always wanted to be sincere with you and I think that sincerity is the best thing. Could you ever relax your eyelids, allow your eyes to close, and to imagine a life we could share? I really dare to dream and imagine us together as a man and a woman,- people that can brighten a life of each other, fill life with sense and variety, with aspiration to learn each other more and more. And I think everyone should believe in dreams; everyone should believe that dreams can really come true! I know that I can lose you at any moment. I thought of us and I wanted to tell you everything I thought; so that you know that I feel we are becoming very good friends and our relations make me happy. I wanted to tell you everything what I think, so that you know that you are dear for me. And even one day without you, without your letter is equivalent to eternity, therefore I even cannot imagine months without you at all... And I hope that our relations are important for you just as for me. I dare to hope, that at least you allow itself to think, that our relations can be promoted further than simply friendship. I hope you have smile now! I will wait for your answer. I hope I haven't offended you. Your
October 20 2004 Here is where she swoops in for the scam.
Hi XXXX! Your letter means so much for me. Thank you. I so waited your letter and so wanted to find out what you will tell me. Thanks for the picture. Every time after I receive your picture, appear traces of lipsticks on the screen of the monitor (smile)
XXXX, today I write to you with special worry but as well with pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried to not show it, I think you have noticed it.
XXXX, I was sad because the boss informed me that approximately in three weeks the laboratory will be closed for full re-equipment and repair. And when he have told me it, I thought my heart will stop, because when it will take place, I will not be able to communicate with you during several months! And it has brought infinite sadness into my heart. But after my boss informed me about close of laboratory, the accounting department informed me that approximately in three weeks I will get my vacation! When I thought that I can lose you for some months, inside my soul I at once have felt that I can't simply accept it. And I have felt that together with sadness in my heart has appeared an other feeling - feeling of confidence, desire to make new steps instead of simply waiting for something. I have understood that our relations are important for me much more than I thought. And it so wonderfully. I had no vacation for two years. And now I will have vacation. But a thoughts that I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that I can't endure. I talked with Olga and she has asked me what I think to do. And when she has asked me it, I have understood that inside my soul I already know the answer to this question. And I have told that I do not want to spend such a long-awaited vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that I will not talk to you
XXXX during of month or two. And I have told that I want to meet you
XXXX! I have told her that I want to spend my vacation with you XXXX! I can come to you, and we can spend time together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I will tell you about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Olga have told, that you
XXXX and I are such a good friends, our relations are built on sincerity, therefore
XXXX will be happy to spend time with me. And I really think that it would be delightfully. So, what you will say,
XXXX, if I will offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend with me several days? I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful. You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life. We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together... I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of again be lonely without you and our friendship. I simply want to meet you. I already knew and I have been told earlier, but I have found out again all I need to do to come to your country. I already have the passport. And I will avoid usual procedure of visa's approval. Being the doctor, I can ask the visa on behalf of our Ministry of Health, because if the applicant have good official support from official bodies, if the applicant have official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference, seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some months the decision of the commission, and will remove all problems connected with necessity to prove that the purpose of travel is not emigration. Being the doctor I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Health of Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor. Of course I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect improbable quantity of documents, to find as many as possibly of other official legal persons, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if I will quickly collect all necessary documents, I will get the visa in one or two weeks! So I have filed an application for the visa,
XXXX, with happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me! I do not ask you about anything. I will use my monetary savings and I will make everything by self. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden. Would you be happy to spend some days with me soon,
XXXX? Anyway, we must meet. It is possible to wait eternally. But I believe that I will get my vacation not accidentally; and I believe that the laboratory will be closed at the same time not accidentally as well. It is not coincidence! It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take new step. Maybe such opportunity will not be repeated again. I so long waited my vacation and I want my vacation to be especial. What can be better than a meeting of two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny that I have got such an opportunity,- an opportunity to meet my dear friend, the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the beginning of something new in our lifes and in our relations. And I am really happy to get a vacation because it is time which I can spend in any way I want, and I want to spend this vacation with you
XXXX! So what will you tell? Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me? Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport? I will wait for your answer with pleasure. Your sincere Alena. P.S. The picture of Olga and me. Please, do not fall in love with her! (smile).
October 21 2004
Hi my XXXX! I waited for your letter with fear and with pleasure at the same time! And I am very happy to receive your letter! I am ready to jump and dance, laugh and sing songs! And the reason - you
XXXX! Thank you for your letter and your thoughts. I must admit that I looked at your pictures very much - very much a long time! And I look till now. And I will look always now! I have no words! You are delightful man! You incredibly handsome and strong! You are very attractive and charming. These pictures amaze me. I am so happy that you want to meet me. Now I have the ocean of emotions and at all I do not know what to say. I am worried very much. I very much hope that we can perfectly spend time together. I only am afraid, that if we will meet, I will asks so many questions and to chatter unceasingly, that you soon will escape from me. I get my vacation once a year. My vacation will begin approximately after November, 12. At this time I can arrive to you. But unfortunately the schedule of my vacation is not flexible. Therefore I hope you will be glad to meet me at this time. If you have not enough time, I will be happy all the same. I will be happy in any case. It is better to wait when you will come from work, than to sit in my apartment and to know that nobody will come!!! Duration of my vacation is 24 workdays. But quantity of days which I can spent with you depends on when I will get my vacation and when I will order the ticket. How many days you want to be with me? I have submitted the visa application. It will take one week. Complexity of approval of the visa will be reduced to a minimum as I will have petitions and characteristics from a work place, from respected organizations and legal persons; guarantee documents and a various sort of the information and inquiry, which will give to commissions the confidence, that my intentions is not emigration. I will get the petition and a testimonial from Ministry of Health of Russian Federation! It is a respected structure and any person working in the field of medicine is under care of the Ministry. Except of that I will pay for preparation for interview with the commission. Every day I think - what my friend
XXXX will tell me today, what mood he will have today? And as soon as I get free minute, I rush to laboratory to find out if you have written to me or not. And when I receive your letter, I start to smile from ear to ear anticipating the best time of my day - time when I read your letter and when I write to you the all my thoughts. These are the most important minutes of my day. And these minutes I don't hear anything and I don't see anything except of lines and paragraphs which in my mind will be transformed into small movie, movie about you, my dear
XXXX. And you cannot imagine at all how it wonderfully! Sometimes I think, what would be if I have not found the boldness in myself to write you? What would be if I didn't believe that I can find a man in such a way? I always want to think that I the courageous woman, but I feel that actually it is not so. I am ready to give my life for the sake of person who are close and dear for me, I am ready to donate my well-being for the sake of well-being of other person but when I think of myself, I often become timid and all my boldness disperses like the fire's smoke. I am often afraid to make something, to take some step simply because of fear that it will be an incorrect step. I am often afraid to ask people about anything simply because of fear to get the negative answer. Not always, but it happens. What would happen, if you have not answered my first letter? Nothing would happen! And grey monotonous days again would lie on a way of my life by infinite impenetrable veil. Do you want to know what I did today? First off, I should tell that I slept with a smile on my face! At least when I have woken up and have looked at the mirror, I have noticed that I smile! Then, I cleaned a teeth and I had smile! Then, I jog and I smiled as if actually I watched funny movie. Then, I have cooked a breakfast and drank a coffee with a smile on my face! Then, I have come to clinic, and I could not hide my smile. I was ready to laugh and I at all had no desire to work! It is a very bad symptom for the doctor! (Smile). Everything around have seemed to me a beautiful and wonderful. And even the severe boss, when have seen that I look at him and I smile, he began to survey himself attentively and even have come near to the mirror to see if anything wrong! He has thought that something wrong with his clothes! All the day I work with smile on my face! Olga looks at me and smiles as well. Of course she understands the reason, and it makes her happy as well! And when time of sleep will come, I will lie in my bed with the same smile on my face! And if you till now have not understood why I smile, I will tell you! I smile because I think of you,
XXXX! And it brings joy! I am so happy that I have in my life such a man as you! Thank you that you are in my life! I have to go. Now I will not have a lot of time after work because after work I will have one more working day! (Smile). You may ask what I mean? The preparation for my trip! You cannot imagine at all how many deals I must do for our meeting! I even have asked the boss to reduce my working day or to allow me to take some hours off in the middle of day to make some things, because after 5 pm not all departments works! Of course now I should work in the days off to have more of free time at week-days. But thoughts about our meeting give me force and energy! I am sure that everything will be perfectly! I will wait your letter! Please, write me because I need your letters and support more than ever! Your Alena! P.S. I would like to knit for you! How about a sweater?
November 2 2004
Hi XXXX! How I am glad that I have an opportunity to write you. My dear
XXXX! I have bad news! I became the drug addict! And my drug - you XXXX! (Smile). I have a little time. I has come here only to write you some lines. I haven't even one free minute. Now the each minute of my day is devoted to you
XXXX! Every minute of my day I use to make our meeting come true. Every minute of my day I think of you and about our meeting. I give off all my diligence and forces to meet you. Thanks for fine delightful beautiful pictures! I can give you my address, but you should not send anything with the exception of letters. Please do not send any parcels. Our Territory - the center of terrorism where concentrated a lot of terrorists from Northern Caucasus and Chechen Republic, and their supporters, and getting of mail from other country is unsafely for Russian people living in Vladikavkaz territory, because some supporters of terrorists can cause me physical harm if find out about sending from America. And a lot of letters and sendings do not reach the addressee. Russian custom house checks everything, and customs officers decide what to skip and what to confiscate or detain. I would not want to think thatgreedy customs officer have sold or have simply given your sending to any interested person, or simply would open it ostensibly for checking assignment of contents and simply would report to bad people my address. It is simply unsafe for me. For this reason I ask you to send only letters. If you want to send me letter, your package should have the minimal sizes and do not draw attention of custom house. Promise? At once I want to tell that I have collected almost all characteristics and petitions from people. Now I will have a meeting with the notary at notary office to legalize all documents. Olga was able to agree with Municipal Department. Now she must get all documents about my family and me. Of course contrary to my expectations not all people are unselfish, but the main thing is that we will get these documents. The rest is not the most important. I already had consultation - preparation for interview. I so worry. I so want to put my head onto your knees and to feel your warm hand on my face. For the sake of it I am ready to give off all my forces! And Olga gives all her forces for our meeting. Last night Olga has come to my home and she have suggested to bake a cake,- simply to relax after difficult day. We have together invented the new recipe and have started to make a cake. I wish you saw this cake! There is not on the Earth any cake with such a quantity of components! (Smile). Between of layers of a soft gentle biscuit we placed mush of kiwi and bananas. The sour cream with a strawberry and juice of fresh lemon have turned into a magnificent cake-cream. We have decorated a cake with a cherry, and when we already wanted to try our cake, we have suddenly understood that we forgot to give a name for our pie. I do not know if in America there is such a tradition, but in Russia each cake have the name, like - "Butterfly", or "Napoleon" or "Ruins Of Graph's Castle". So we began to look attentively at our cake, and to think,- what name this cake must have. Olga began to offer various names - "Cinderella" or "Autumn Charm". But I said that all this is banal and too ordinary. There is millions cakes with similar names. Then she has offered the name - "Dancing Elephant" or "Fallen Gymnast "! I have asked her - why "Fallen Gymnast"? And she has answered that it is unusually, and in any country of the world I never would find a pie with the similar name ! (Smile). But I said that it is too foolishly! Olga offered tens of names, but to each her offer I answered that it is too foolishly, or too banal, or too ordinary, or it is not interesting. Finally Olga has told: "All right Alena, if you are so clever, maybe you will offer anything not banal, unusual, not foolish and interesting?" And then I have told: "Look at this cake! This cake is appetizing just as
XXXX!!!! I want to name this cake - XXXX!" (Smile). I wish you saw Olga during that moment! She has fallen onto a floor and began to laugh loudly! I could not stop her at all! She has told: "Alena, you are absolutely crazy Russian woman, but I love the name
XXXX!!!! "(Smile). We together laughed loudly all the evening, we drank tea and ate a delightful cake with the name
XXXX!!! (Smile). I hope you are not offended that I have named a cake by your name? It is a beautiful, sweet, gentle, and very tasty cake!!!
XXXX, I have to go. I hope you dream and think of me as often as I think of you! (Smile). Please, write me the letter! I beg you, do not forget about me now! (Smile) Please, tell me that you wait for me with impatience (smile). Please, tell me that you are dreaming to embrace me at the airport! (Smile) Yes, I have written down all your information and now it always with me in my handbag!
XXXX, if some lady would want to be with you while your beloved woman don't see you, what would you tell that lady? Forgive me, I have to go. But only because I want to meet you as soon as possible!!!!(smile). Your
November 9 2004 Here is where they ask the sum of $$$$
Hi, my XXXX. I even do not know what to tell first. I simply hope that you will be happy! The most important, finest news - I did it! I got the visa! I am very happy!!!! I as well have found out that I will get vacation November, 21, 2004. I was in the company which reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Denver (DEN) and how much it costs. They have offered to me the ticket that costs $1119.80 USD. I asked them to find cheapest ticket, because this price is expensive for me. They have answered that they have a cheaper ticket and the beginning of the flight November, 25, 2004. It costs $819 USD. It was the best variant for me. I asked them to reserve a ticket. But they refused, because they can't reserve the ticket without advance payment. I must pay full cost. I have asked if I can pay a part of money now, and the other part later. They have told that it is possible, but I will be limited by term. And if I will not pay the full cost of the ticket within of this term, I will lose already nested money. I have agreed because it is the only chance for me, because I must give to anti-emigration committee a data about my payment. By this moment I had only the concrete sum of money which I had after all my expenses. I paid $ 500 USD. But it was not enough for them. In a panic, all what Olga and I could do - we pawned our gold earrings and rings and I got $ 72 USD. That is all I could do. The number of the flight on which I will get the ticket is 315 Aeroflot-Russian International Airlines The time of departure from Moscow is 3:30 pm. The time of arrival in Denver is 10:19 pm. I will change a plan in New York (JFK), number of the flight 1165 Delta Airlines. After this I will fly to Denver, to you. I know that probably I simply must tell that I can't come to you because I haven't the remaining sum. I know that I promised to do all by self, and I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I did, I cannot simply tell that I will not come to you. I have passed through so many difficulties, and I have overcome the most difficult. But all the same I have disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise. I am always ready to do all what is possible,- to fulfill my promises, but at the same time I understand that any person could get in such a situation. To get the visa I has spent much more money than I expected. But people were ready to help me only if I will pay them. I paid more than 300 dollars to get all documents, I paid in municipal committee, in the ministry. Even officers in army garrison have compelled me to pay for their help. I did not expect all this, but up to the last moment I was sure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get a vacation payment. We get a vacation payment after ending of a vacation. I asked to give me this money now because I need this money urgently. But, at the last moment I have got the answer that I can get this money urgently only in case of serious illness or for example in case of death of the relative. I feel so guilty. I was sure that nothing can prevent our meeting. But I must pay remaining sum. It is $ 247 USD. And I must pay money before November, 12, 2004 evening. Otherwise I will lose my nested money and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not ask you, and I am very ashamed to do it. And maybe I really simply had to tell you that I can't meet with you because I could not provide my travel completely. But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all my diligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain. I understand that for you it is too big sum to lend me. You are not obliged to help me. And 300 dollars which I have spent to get the visa, and 572 $ that I have given for the ticket are huge money for me. But I want you to know that I have given everything not for the sake of myself, but for the sake of us, for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. If you want to meet me, to help me to make our meeting, please, send money to the help before November, 12, 2004 evening. I want you to be confident in my sincerity, that is why I send you the view of my visa. I do not know if you want to help me or already not. But you have told that I should let you know if there is anything that I need. I believe you even though I am afraid to ask. But I have no other exit. If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Olga said that you can help me with the help of remittance system. So I have addressed to the most convenient bank. I have been told that they use the system ''Money Gram''. They have told that it is the American system. There are other systems and other banks. But this bank and this system - ''Money Gram'' are located in the most convenient and safe place for me. There I can receive your help very fast and I will be absolutely safety. I give you necessary elements for sending money with the help of ''Money Gram'': Sviaz Bank Prospekt KOSTA 134 Vladikavkaz, Russian Federation 362003 for Alena Sokolowa. In bank I have been told, that to get the money, I must tell to employee of bank your full name, your full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers (Reference Number). You will get this number in your bank if you will send your help. Only with presence of all this information I can get your help. I do not know what answer I will get from you. I very much am afraid that you will not help me. But I want to tell, that I really need you, and I simply can't endure the thought that I did almost everything, but I will not meet you. I understand that it is big money. I have given all my forces, but together we are stronger. I really ask you to help me. I will give you back all your money at the earliest opportunity. I have written you honestly and sincerely. Are you with me? Your
This is the letter I got after I asked her if this were a scam because Money Gram would not send the money due to a fraud alert. Hardly bats an eye at my questions. November 11 2004
Hi my soul XXXX. I do not understand people in Money ram. It is strange. But in our country name Sokolowa widespread. Just as in your country Bush (smile). Take advantage of system the Western Union I cannot write much. I only have come for some minutes here, and I have some minutes to write to you! You cannot imagine what occurs in my heart and in my soul! Thoughts about our meeting make me happy! I even am happy when I alone in my apartment! Do you know why? I know that we will meet, and I simply I have no words. My heart completely obeys you! You are my man! Yesterday I together with Olga began to sew a gift for you! I did not want to tell you about it, but I am so happy that I cannot keep quiet! (Smile). We will sew for you the beautiful jacket, to wear in autumn or spring. I will not tell you everything about this jacket, but I know that you will admired! Please,
XXXX, do not think that you will not like it because I do not know a fashion of clothes that you like to wear. It will be a simple stylish straight jacket, with a classical collar, a little lower of a belt. I assure you, you will admired! (Smile). We several times sewed similar jackets; and we used for a base the pictures from modern magazines of clothes. But your jacket will be the best! Because I will do it with special love. It will be my gift for you! Olga will help me so that I have had time to finish it before my arrival to you! Do you like simple, not warm jackets? Could you tell me the volume of your chest, and the length of your hand from a shoulder up to a wrist? Or simply a size of clothes that you wear? It will help me! By the way, I as well will bring for you a small Russian souvenir! And some other souvenirs for other people who are dear for you! (Smile). I hope you will be glad! I do not know how to thank you for everything. You changed my life. I am so happy. Now I have no any sad thoughts in my head. The only thing that frightens me - the plane. I am afraid that I will have feeling of a nausea. And I am afraid that the plane will fall! Forgive me, maybe it is silly for you. But in the tv I really so often saw planes which fell.
XXXX, I WANT TO HAVE THE PARACHUTE!!!! (Smile). Soon we will be together and it will be wonderful. If we fated to become single whole, I believe that it will be. Our hearts are like two great oceans. They are vast and very deep yet calm an peaceful on the surface. Our feeling run very deep and they are very strong. Sometimes we get afraid we will be pulled under by the current. I dream that our two oceans will meet in a powerfull wave that will shake the very earth. And when all is done there will be one vast beautiful ocean, beautiful, powerful and forever...one heart, one ocean.
XXXX you have given me much more than you can realize. You are my prayer, my shelter from hopelessness and despair, only you can keep the spark in my soul burning bright. I send you a picture of me when I was 27 years old!!! Now I am happy just as in this picture! (Smile). Your
November 12 2004 I have not sent any money but promise to soon
Hi my XXXX! Today is a wonderful day because today in the morning I have again painted out the one cell in my big calendar on the wall! Now it is my favourite deal since morning! The first thing I do now when I wake up - I cross out a cell of the last day in the calendar, and I see that less and less days remains up to our meeting. It is such a delightful feeling. Today as always I wanted to jog, but I could not,
XXXX!!! I simply walked on the street with smile on my face. I did not want to jog. I simply walked, imagined you near to me, imagined that you hold my hand. I even have imagined that you are in a jacket that I sew for you! (Smile). I so want to close my eyes for some time; and then to open my eyes and to see you and your smile. I so want our dreams to come true as soon as possible. I so want to feel for the first time the warmth of your hand, taste of your lips. I so want, looking into your eyes, to tell you everything what I feel! And I want to tell it in both languages! (Smile) Today I was talking to Olga, and she began to tease me. She said: " If you, Alena, were not the best friend of mine, I would write the letter to
XXXX and he would forget you, and he would speak only with me! " (Smile). I have answered that you,
XXXX will not ever exchange me for anybody! But she continued to tease me and we have started to argue! (we joked of course). But Olga continued to tell that my long hair is not fashionable, that her short hairstyle is much more beautiful, that she is more seductive than I. We laughed, but soon my patience has ended, and I have hurled into Olga the rag by which we wipe a dust in a cabinet! Of course Olga has hurled this rag back. Then I have again hurled this rag into her but she has hidden under a table and began to laugh loudly like the small child. We have forgotten that we are in clinic, that I the doctor and Olga the assistant of the doctor, we have forgotten that we are 30-years old women, we have forgotten that our boss - the strict severe person, we have forgotten about everything and simply laughed, jumped and struggled like the schoolgirl! But you,
XXXX, cannot imagine at all what has happened at the next moment! When Olga stood near a door, I have hurled into her a rag, but at the same moment when Olga has evaded,- the door has opened and our boss has come into our cabinet!!!!!! And the rag which I has hurled has landed right onto his face!!!!
XXXX, it was unique!!! He was simply shocked. Some seconds he simply stood with a rag on the face and even did not remove it. He was completely stunned. He simply could not believe that the thirty-year woman - the doctor - has hurled a rag right into the face of the boss!!!! He was so ridiculous, that first, Olga and I simply stood with open mouthes, but after some seconds we have simply started to laugh like lunatics! (Smile). When we have ceased to laugh, the furious boss started to shout and offend me. He told me some bad things, and at this moment something happened inside me! I have felt that I am not a weak lonely woman, like I was in the past! I have felt that I have you,
XXXX, and I am not afraid of anything in the life now. And I have told to him: " I'm sorry for the rag, but listen, if you once again will dare to shout at me, if you once again will dare to tell me a rough words, if you once again will offend any woman in our clinic, I will inform my boyfriend
XXXX about it, and XXXX will transform you into a cutlet!!! " (Smile).
XXXX, I always was afraid of my boss and always was silent when he offended me. But today when I have told all this to him, he was simply lost for words. He simply did not expect it from me. He was so scared, that he even haven't answered me, and simply has gone.
XXXX, now all women in our clinic know that I have the boyfriend, and that my boyfriend has frightened our boss as nobody before! (Smile). Thank you
XXXX! Olga asks to allow her to drop you a line. I hope you will not be annoyed. She simply wants to tell some kind words, as she asserts! (Smile): Well well well! ok! Hi! it is Olga! I am not knows englesh good. So fogive me. I know you veri good becouse Alena is tolk abaut you 24 hourses in the day! I onli want tell you - the thank you becouse Alena is was never to smile in the work in the past time. But now she is smile and she is hapy! Please save Alena froum tears and please do not do Alena to cry. She it is very good wouman, and you will to be hapy togezer with Alena. You it is good man. I to wish to you and the Alena be hapy togezer! Good by. Olga.
XXXX, I read all what she has written and I laugh. I wanted to correct her mistakes, but she has not allowed. I only hope you can understand everything that she wanted to tell. I understand everything, but I am not sure about you. You make us smile. Thank you. I will finish my letter, but I will think of you, and I hope you will come to me in my sleep-dream tonight? (Smile). I will wait for you! (Smile). Your Alena. P.S. I have managed to change date of payment. I hope you will have time to help me. Saturday will be ok for my.
November 15 2004
XXXX, my dear, my gentle man. Do you think of your woman Alena? (Smile). My dear
XXXX, I do not know how to live these days. It is a true test. After all difficulties that we have together passed through, after all tests, the only thing that holds us far apart - time. And the awaiting now is much more difficult than everything that we did. In my thoughts I am already with you. Even when I go to sleep, I hold close to me my favorite soft toy - the koala, and embracing this toy I think of you (smile). There is only a few days up to our meeting, and I do not want to work, I do not want to jog, I do not want to go on Trip Day, I do not want anything absolutely! (Smile). I only want departure day to come as soon as possible. Olga has told that she will live with me until I will go to you. If to be honest, I asked her about that! (Smile). And she has agreed of course. I am afraid to stay alone now when all what I must do - simply to wait. I am afraid of the flying bricks (smile), I am afraid of a fire and in general I am afraid of anything that might prevent our meeting! (Smile). Therefore I have asked Olga to live with me. So do not worry about me! Now every evening we chatter about you and about our meeting. Every day Olga suggests me to start to collect my suitcase. But I want to start to collect my suitcase last day of my work! I will get a true pleasure when I will collect my suitcase because it will be the first day of my vacation!!!! How I want this day to come. Yesterday Olga has brought a souvenir for you. She wants to express her gratitude for all what you did for me, and she asks me to present this souvenir to you. I will not tell you what is it. But it is a Russian national souvenir! She did a good choice!(smile) I think half of my suitcase will be occupied with gifts for you! (Smile). Maybe I should attach a beard to my face and to become a Santa Claus for you? (Smile). By the way,
XXXX, what kind of clothes I should take? High heels? Swimsuit? Evening dress? Shorts? Jacket? Sweater? Jeans? I will execute any your whim! (Smile).
XXXX, Olga constantly teases me! She knows that I am afraid to fly by plane and constantly talks that before to sit down into the plane I should be convinced that all tanks are filled with kerosene and that all pilots are sober! (Smile). And first we are dared, but then I really start to be afraid. Can you imagine,
XXXX, that sometimes in the childhood I dreamed to be a spacewoman!!! (Smile).
XXXX, do you want to find out one of my biggest dreams? I want to fly on the balloon... I dream about it since the childhood. I am dreaming to fly up in the sky, to feel a wind in my hair. I dream to see the Earth just as birds see it. The balloon controlled only by a wind is a true embodiment of freedom and dream. I dream to fly with you on the balloon above fields and rivers, above woods and lakes. It is the best way to feel true freedom of reason, soul and body. Maybe one day you and I will fly on our balloon. We will hold our hands and to watch all beauty of the world remaining far under us... I am sure
XXXX, that we always will have many dreams, beautiful dreams. And I am sure that all our dreams will come true. I know that all our dreams will come true, because just as I you believe in beauty, in miracles. Together we can subdue any barrier, and our common dreams will become our common aims. I believe in it.
XXXX, I have to go. I should work some days and then I will be your entirely and completely! (Smile). Tomorrow I will probably go on my last Trip Day!!! Not with the purpose to get documents (smile). This time it will be a true Trip Day - to our patients. It will be the last time when I will be tired! After this ''Trip Day'' I will begin preparation to my vacation! I send you a picture of me in a sadness! Of course now I am happy, but I think you must see how I will be sad, if at the airport you will not kiss me! (Smile). I kiss you gently, my
XXXX! Prepare your lips, because soon they will be kissed by the Russian woman with name Alena! (Smile). Your Alena.